uNdERStanDING me and yourself?

"I understand..its okey.Don't worry"
This is very familiar and I use it most of the time.I am not really sure either I will say it out to take care of others feeling or because I really meant it.When we want to pleasure someone we sometime ought will say this,just like me.I am not sure about you but yes I did it.

It is hard to understand someone when that person cannot meet our needs..our wishes and our dream? Frankly speaking,it does. Sometimes it leave bitterness in my heart when I am always the one who say" Its okey" even though its not okey. Hypocrite?maybe hahha.

Bitterness is not good!
Hypocrite is not good either!
SO WHAT IS GOOD THEN?

GOD
Forgiveness
Honesty
Loving

Do I have all these?do I need all these to maintain my relationship with others? YES I NEED THAT 100%. why do I say that?because that was what happened to me this few days. when others cannot meet my needs..I turn to God for help and courage..it works!
As I read this verse,It really speaks to me..ngam bah hihi

My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalms 73:26)

So how about you?what makes you able to understand others when the situation seems impossible for you to understand?Jesus is the right answer..Turn to Him and He will make your way.amen

When HE says;"I LOVE YOU"

I PROMISE
When I say I love Jesus..nothing can set us apart
When I say love you..I really meant it
When I say I love my family..that is very true
When I say I love every single of my friends..I will keep it forever

SUDDENLY

When these words appear..
BITTERNESS
ANGRY
DISAPPOINTMENT
GIVE UP
FRUSTRATION
REJECTED
FORGOTTEN
Am I still able to keep my promise?
Am I still able to look up to Jesus for help and hope?
Am I still able to love the people who hates me?
Am I still able to say I love you to the the people who far from me?

ONLY ONE ANSWER
YES I DO!
BECAUSE JESUS ENABLES ME SO!
HOW PROUD AM I TO HAVE A GREAT GOD LIKE HIM
HE IS MY BESTFRIEND,MY LOVER AND MY DADDY!

BUT..there is BUT here.Is it hard to always believing and be positive? I am not a superwoman and what so ever you call it. I am a human being..I did mistakes..I have feeling and I do have my so called bad day. It was a hypocrite of me telling people:
"Don't worry dear,you gonna be okey.God is with you!"
"You can do it'
"It's a process to be matured"
bla bla bla........
and I end up..crying alone and try to raise up my faith in Him..to believe Him that its gonna be okey if I trust Him.

ITS HARD REALLY HARD..i faced it before,every moment when I felt discourage.. maybe even now.Its even harder when the BAD OLD LIFE OF ME confronted me..it tempted me to say "Okeey..I am giving up..I can't do it anymore..I am mess.."

AGAIN BUT..
you know what makes me really awake of feel sympathy of myself? is the people around me.the people that I love around me..am I not important to me?is their problem important than myself...?its sound crazy but that is what i feel..when God showed me what the people around me faced,their mess in life,family problem,financial problem..so much problem...I started telling myself:
'God wants to use you Nernny for these people,the people around you.HE LOVES YOU"
and the simple "I LOVE YOU" from God actually makes me ARISE..

Every morning when I got up,God reminds me on HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME so that I can love others just like HE LOVES ME....that is when the "ME' come in again hahahha..
JESUS LOVES YOU
JESUS LOVES EACH ONE OF YOU
and...yeah JESUS LOVES ME TOO!!!!

LISTENING TO GOD'S VOICE

WHY AM I REALLY WANT TO HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD?
1.So that I can tell Him my problems and my plan and what's happening in my life
2.I want to know what His BEAUTIFUL PLAN for me
3.So that I will know what will happen in my future
and..lots more

BUT

God rebuked me a few days ago about how selfish am I. I want to hear God's voice because I want to know what good things He has for me..in other words I have my own agenda why I really want to listen to His voice. Every morning when I open my Bible I ask God, "Lord,what You have for my situation today?" EVERYTHING WAS ABOUT ME-MYSELF-MY OWN BENEFIT! VERY VERY SELFISH..yeah!I don't do that because I want to know Him more..that is my answer..honest.

BUT AGAIN
For God loves me and rebukes me,I know I have to change. No more ME-MYSELF-MY OWN AGENDA,but I want to listen to Him because I want to know Him more.I want to know His agenda and His desire.Help me to understand You more,to obey You and to be sensitive with You my Lord!amen

He loves me and I belong to Him

“But now, this is what the Lord says - He who created you, Nernny, He who formed you, Nernny:

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior …you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you..Fear not, for I am with you"
(Isaiah 43:1-5 ESV)

SHOW ME THE RIGHT PATH

Show me the right path, O Lord;point out the road for me to follow.Lead me by Your truth and teach me,for You are the God who saves me.All day long I put my hope in You.
PSALM 25:4-5

This few days I always ask myself,"am I really allowing God to direct my paths?".Then God gently reminded me through this verses that He is the Teacher and also my Daddy..and I am His student,His precious daughter.
God reminded me to trust Him, not a desire or a dream. Not the world's view of things. Not my abilities. Not my ideas. Just Him :)
Yeah just Him...Halleluyah!

come back together

Somehow I found that its not that easy to come back normal.Its hard..I can't..but honestly I miss the happy moment we always had together before.we laugh,we shared and we cried together until..it seems that slowly its fading away.I am sorry if I failed to be your good friend..but I pray and always pray so that we can come back together again.amen

Marriage is Commitment :)

MARRIAGE IS... "till death do us part," not "until the going gets rough." It is a lifelong commitment based upon sacred vows uttered in the presence of the Creator of marriage. It is not two people simply living together, but two living as a team ordained by God for the advancement of His glory in commitment to His will.

Trust in the Lord

Whoever trusts in the Lord is safe.

The Lord is exalted, for he dwells on high.—The Lord is high above all nations, and his glory above the heavens!… He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap, to make them sit with princes.

God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus.

He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?… For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Special Gift from Daddy

Dear My precious daughter,
Why do you feel down and your trust in Me fading away? I am your Daddy who always right besides you.Do you know how much I love you?Do you know how much the people around you love you,your family and friends..special friend. I gave them to you as My special gift,only for you.They will care and love you for who you are...some of them I sent to you like what you requested years ago.Don't "hide" from them but live with them.I know you are My strong daughter.That is the reason I can believe in you always and always..that you will never give up in anything.I love you!

Love and Hug,
Daddy

Anything,..Anywhere

Lord,I give You all of myself to You. Take every aspect of my life and use me for Your kingdom to glorify Your name.I'll do anything You want me to do,go anywhere You want me to go, and say anything You want me to say. Father,there isn't any gift that You have for me that I don't want. If You want to use me in a way I'm not used to,I yield myself to that.I trust You,Lord,to teach and guide me as a I dedicate my life to You.In Jesus' name.Amen.