Telah ku trima dari Mu
Bukan kerna kebaikan ku
Hanya oleh Kasih Karunia Mu
Kau pulihkan aku
Layakkan ku tuk dapat memanggil Mu Bapa
Kau bri yg ku pinta
Saat ku mencari ku mendapatkan
Ku ketuk pintu Mu dan Kau bukakan
Sbab Kau Bapa ku
Bapa yang kekal
Takkan Kau biarkan
Aku melangkah hanya sendirian
Kau selalu ada bagiku
Sbab Kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal....
Beloved,again and again when I learn to see God as my Father actually its very hard to see God in that way. I can call God Daddy but still I can't feel the Father's love. I ask myself why? God gave me the clear answer last saturday during CG when we learn the first topic: Memiliki Hati Bapa.
My father is a good father but there is something missing until now-to have his love for me. I don't really experience how Father's love look like.When I saw people very close with their father,I am so jelous. I told that how nice if I can have that love too. Last year I ever called Papa to ask forgiveness but this year God remind me that I have something unsettled with Papa (ouch!)..
I really want to know God as my Father and experience His Father's love but first I have to reconcile with Papa first. There are many things that I have to tell Papa my disappointment towards him all these years that I just keep them all in my heart..its not easy though but I have t o do that. I want to have the love that God has for all of us-THE AGAPE LOVE. If God can love me with His unconditional love I believe I can do the samething to Papa.
Beloved, I might don't know what kind of relationship you have with your father or maybe mother,but let us take this time to rethink-if we can love God so much, are willing to love and forgive our parents on earth?People always think as long as I am okay with my parents and they are okay with me, that should be okay.How okay is okay? Okay is not enough..it must be something better than okay-WOW hahah. I want to have that WOW in my relationship with papa an even mama so that I can have that WOW love with Goa as well :)
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