2010

I am 22 years old this year and another 1day I have to say good bye to my lovely number 22. Actually I don't really like number 23..but do not know why haha.

2010..
I just want to thank God this wonderful year-full of surprises, my year of healing and restoration,my lovely year. Year 2010 is the best year at this moment. Many things happen that i don't expect but God allowed that to happen my own good. Some happy and yeah at the other side its hurtful.

JANUARY 2010
NO TURNING BACK
even sometimes I was so tempted to come back to the old bad lifestyle but the Holy Spirit keep on reminding me to stand firm and not turning back.

COMMITMENT?
I just can't believe that I start it again to give commitment. A bit scared of failure but I just go on..yet it was my happiest month ever haha!

FEBRUARY 2010
GIVING UP
Yeah I almost giving up..so early huh?
but Jeremiah 17:7 "Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD "strengthen me and wake me up again :)

MARCH 2010
NEW NERNNY
God healed me and restore my life and my soul back..Thank God for enable me to accept and forgive myself and others as well. Always remember "Keterbukaan adalah awal dari pemulihan"


APRIL 2010
GOD'S PLAN
I have my own plan in my head for my future even for my career. Even though I always said depend on God but actually I didn't really do. That was bad! So that month I was thinking so hard what I really really wanna to be and what I really wanna do in the future and thank God for changing my heart.Since that day I started to trust God to guide me in this journey and surrender my plan into His hand.


MAY 2010
LOVE
I am in love hahahaha.yeah with sign language during my pre-practicum. That was very very memorable moment which I will never forget the rest of my life.Many things made me smile during this month..just so happy actually.

JUNE 2010
REMINDER
Dr.Chealsea reminded me again about my responsibilities upon this nation..wow am I the new Prime Minister.hahha I don't hope so..but my responsibility is to keep on praying for this nation until God sent His revival upon this nation. PRAY-GOD'S WORD-HIGH DISCIPLINE!

STOP
Something I almost wanna do but thank God for my friend who remind me.
"Don't start-Stop. Forget it and come back to the Lord". Thank You Jesus!


JULY 2010
GO FORWARD
Philippians 3:13,one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead.
I tell the truth and thank God for accepting me for who I am.

BIRTHDAY!
Hahah finally for the first time I celebrated birthday with Sardine Cake haha. Thank to my Perkebians family for supporting me. Love you all!

GIVING UP AGAIN?
I don't know but there is one time during that month I feel that I want to stop everything because I am so tired-very tired!But someone told me to stay strong because God doesn't want me to give up and for the people around me.

AUGUST 2010
SELF-CONTROL
Have you ever feel that you are being unloved by someone..that was what happened to me. Weirdo Nernny haha. But DADDY told me one thing that I should learn to appreciate the people around me no matter what they are doing..so yeah I just listen and do lah hehe. I have to learn to control my self and rely upon God..in other word-I NEED GOD MORE!

SEPTEMBER 2010
REMAIN HOLY AND PURE BEFORE GOD
I think that month was the month of holiness hahha because God remain me not only through my devotion but also through my friends. I have to remain holy and pure especially in my relationship until the day come. Sometimes hard but I choose to surrender to God and not compromising!

OCTOBER 2010
TRUST GOD
God worked miraculous in my financial and yeah I learn to trust Him more and forgetting my other so called back up plan if God didn't answer my prayer haha. Not only that but God restored my relationship with one of my close friend where we actually having problem.


NOVEMBER 2010
FORGIVING
Hhahaha yeah i settle one of my problem for not forgiving my parents..and for the first time I call them and ask for forgiveness.remember :AKU SAYANG KAU"...that was awesome God!

DECEMBER 2010
SURPRISES
Many things surprised me when God taught me many new things and bring me to many places and also meeting new people. I was amazed by God for giving me chance and courageous to all those things that happening. I made some decisions as well which quite hard for me but I think I just have to do that until the right time come. My friend ask me when but I answered her back that i don't know. I watch one movie last night and what really captured me was about commitment;Don't give your heart to anyone until you are ready for a commitment. Otherwise you will hurt that person or even yourself.

So yeah..I think that was what happen to me throughout this year. One thing I really wanna do in my spiritual journey is KEEP ON TRUSTING AND OBEYING GOD.


“Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” (Isaiah 41:10)

So friends..keep moving and don't let fear stops you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!
Jesus Loves You!!!