Rebuilding the broken walls

Shalom people!

It almost a month I spent my holiday in my home sweet home. There are many things happened in my life when I met many new people at our new home, new community and new church. Yet I was very grateful to have the chance to know each one of those people who really teach me about humbleness. The people who thirst with the truth! I am thankful to have the chance to be with them, to pray together with them, to worship God together and to share with them about God’s love especially the kids..they are so adorable haha. I learnt many new things too including all the labor work hahha since we are helping to build our new church and also I start to help in our rubber farm. Very tired but it so much fun to do all that actually!

O ya I just finished read one very good book-“Melayani daripada kehidupan dalaman yang kuat” by Susan Tang. The most important part that really caught my heart was the intimacy with God in our ministry. Many God’s servant so excited to preach about God but they do not have the new manna from God. Yes they still preach the Gospel to the people but no power. There reason is one thing-they are too busy to serve and to preach the Gospel but forget to build strong relationship with God. It’s very simple concept, if you have not spending time to listen and to grow closer with God you will never get the new message and captured God’s heart! You may able to impress many people with your talents or your teaching about God but  do you still remember this verse:

Matthew 7:21-23 (ESV)

(21)  "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven.

(22)  On that day many will say to Me, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and cast out demons in Your name, and do many mighty works in Your name?'

(23)  And then will I declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness.'

As I read this book, I ask forgiveness from Daddy because I admit I am in that group of people who forget the real quiet time with God. Of course I still do quiet time but just a normal routine without any expectations to know God’s more. I can say that my quiet time was in rush moment..I can’t really spent quality time with Daddy because I just too busy. And because of that I run the race without the baton from Daddy to pass on to His people..actually I just wasting my energy to share about Daddy if I do not have what Daddy really wants me to bring. I do not have the new manna because I don’t take time to wait and to listen. BANG BANG BOOM…..what a big bomb in my spiritual life. I let the big hole of my wickedness grow and grow until it ruins my spiritual walls and now its collapse!

However I thank God for the chance once again to rebuild the walls of my spiritual life by starting over again. The time of refreshing and to come back to God to capture His heart again.

Friends,

Its never too late to come back to God for no matter how far to have gone from God. Its better to come back now rather than at the end we are not allowed to enter His presence because of our wickedness and because we never have intimacy with God.

“Pekerjaan-pekerjaan luaranmu nampaknya memuaskan tetapi niat-niat dalamanmu dan keadaan hatimu tidak menepati sasaranKu. Aku nampak apa yang ada di dalam, keadaan hatimu yang merosot dan tercemar; kamu pun ketahui perkara ini tetapi kamu tidak berbuat apa-apa. Kamu tidak pernah pun datang kepadaKu untuk penyucian, kamu terus melakukan semua ini dengan cara ‘perintah diri sendiri’, kamu menutupi pereputan di dalam diri kamu dan niat-niat hina kamu dengan perbuatan-perbuatan yang nampaknya mulia di luar. Aku tidak pernah pun terlibat dalam apa yang kamu buat”

Keadaan rohani dalaman yang merosot menjadikan mereka tidak berkuasa lagi untuk bertahan di dalam hadirat Tuhan. Walupun Tuhan tidak menamatkan pelayanan mereka, Tuhan tidak memberi kepada mereka keistimewaan suci, kekuatan mahupun keupayaan untuk memasuki tempat yang suci untuk mempersembahkan kemenyan korban di hadapanNya.

(Melayani Daripada Kehidupan Dalaman Yang Kuat-Page54)