Prepared by God

After 22years in this world when I look back with what happened in my life..I realize that I always argued with God why I have to gone through though life.I always read the Bible verse written in Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. "
I sometimes doubt the truth behind this verse and it was really affect my life.Most people might hard to believe that I really suffered with my own life because I grown up in super happy family and great friends surrounding me..even until now.But that was hypocrite! Satan was cheating on me for how many years and I just let him conquer my life then.
But as my God will never give up on me, I opened my heart to Him this year and allowed Him to take full control of my life.No matter what I've been through in my life I now choose to believe that everything happen for a reason.
As I read my mail inbox today, I received an encouragement mail form Wendy Blight. She said that:
"Not a single thing in your life will be wasted. God will use your past and your present to prepare you for your future. He has a beautiful plan ... a call on your life. He is waiting to reveal it to you."
That's right.now as I am waiting for Him to reveal the truth in my life I will choose not to believe in satan anymore.
Its enough and now is my turn to say that I AM FREE!!!
This is the process of changing my life to be like Him.

Sweet Nernny I want you to remember:
God brought you here today.He wants to remind you of a precious Truth. Hear it and never forget it...before time began, before God spoke the world into being...He had you in His heart. God chose you to be His child. God has a perfect plan for your life. No one else has your plan, your family, your gifts, your talents, your heart, your education, your past, and your present ... NO ONE.
He chose you to use you to do great things for His Kingdom ... things that only you can do.
He is preparing you...even now.

But to be used by God, you must TRUST Him with your past; BELIEVE Him for your future; BELIEVE He has a plan for you; SURRENDER your life to His Plan, and BELIEVE He will equip you to do what He has called you to do.

You can do it!
Amen

giving up????

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so so tired but life must go on Nernny.God is my only hope when things become worst and looks impossible for me.i felt that i just want to drop everything and stop but He strengthens me towards my difficulties..when things happen that i really cannot handle again and again i kept it for my self..He always make me feel that i am not alone...NERNNY YOU ARE NOT ALONE BECAUSE I AM WITH YOU EVERY SINGLE OF YOUR STEPS..thank you Lord!

Chaiyyooo gambateh Narnia:)

blessed week

it has been a really busy week for me but I thank God that He still enable me spent time with Him.i want to share a lot on how God really bless me this week.



First thing was during MKK10 last Tuesday.During the practice and even the last rehearsal I was so stress because the drama still not good and I also faced problem with the other MKK10 AJK.I was thinking to give up but God was so faithful and He strengthens me every time I wanna quit.During the MKK10 itself I did some mistakes but praise the Lord that it doesn't really effect the whole event and everyone was so blesses with that event,HALLELUJAH!

After the MKK10,another event coming which is my college dinner..and they asked me to become the VVIP usher.I was so stress again because the VVIP is my university NC.I am nervous and I scared that I can't do well.but I really thank God that He reminds me today that nothing I can't do if I rely upon Him.That's right!

and today I attended Y4C.Bro.Alung from Indonesia was shared about "the young generation is you".The first point that he shared was, we been chosen from the very beginning of our creation for His big plan.The plan is to share His light in this dark world..it can be in many ways.So he said every time when we speak with someone do remember to include indirectly the Word of God..
The second point was start to serve God where ever He puts you..no matter in your college,class or church.ad move to one level to another level of serving Him by extend and enlarge your capabilities in serving God.do not stick in one thing without improving it.Cuba gali potensi anda dalam melayani anda dan berhenti dengan keterbatasan "I CAN'T DO THAT AND THIS!".
The last one was about building close relationship with God.every time and every day make time for Him and draw close to His presence.Dengan meluangkan masa dengan Tuhan,maka Dia akan lebih dekat dengan kita dan kita akn lebih sensitif untuk mengetahui kehendak hatiNya dalam kehidupan kita.

I just want to share one testimony about my financial this week.We have lots event and field trip which required me to use lots money as well.but I really learn to trust God that He will faithful in blessing and providing our needs if we choose to be faithful in giving our best portion to Him.Honestly sometime I doubt God goodness but I Learn to just believe Him by giving my best during offering.and God open the door for other people to bless me just in PERFECT TIME!how great is our God..AMEN!How I develop all this??through my close relationship with Him..praying and meditate His Word.it was amazing experience when you choose to put Him at the first place in your life.

So everything and anything is in God's hand..and TRUST-HAVE FAITH-BELIEVE HIM and you will see the difference!

God bless!

I TRUST YOU LORD

this few days God really spoke to me about trusting Him.its just unexplainable.no matter what I am doing but suddenly God just bring me to the point of worshiping Him in prayer and reading His Word.It was very amazing experience where God will show you something new out of your problems and everything.it has been a tough week for me but I can say that,God is always there for me.Yesterday i received the encouragement card for one of my Cf event and the verse that I have was Psalms 37:5.this morning when I wanna do my devotions..God brings me again to the verse..and okey I told thank You.but just now when i was looking through one of my friend album photo in fb suddenly God just wants me to open Psalm 37 again.and when I checked back the last photo that i want to see in my friend's album..guess what its a bible verse.."TRUST IN YOUR LORD".actually when God asked me to open Psalm 37,I was trying to tell myself..i read the verse twice..why must that verse again.so I just open my Bible and read.while I am reading the verse God started to remind me of everything that I've been through my life..and I really learn to trust Him step by step..as in Psalm 37:4 says, "take delight in the Lord and He will give you your heart's desires". frankly speaking I do not know what I really want in my life..but one thing that I am really sure is I want to be like Jesus..i do not want to be me..but Him.JESUS IS MY EVERYTHING..HE NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE..HE NEVER GIVE UP ON ME..AND that is the reason why I want to be like Him.Jesus is MY SAVIOR AND HE DIES FOR MY SINS and He accepted me for who am I.

God..teach me more and lead me more..draw me more close to YOU day by day.NOW I AM GIVING YOU THE FULL PERMISSION TO DO EVERYTHING YOU WANT IN MY LIFE.amen..

"take delight in the Lord and He will give you your heart's desires.Commit everything you do to the Lord.Trust Him and He will help you."
PSALM 37:4-5

Believe it or Not

whooah..
I just can't believe that finally somebody make it happen.I do not know either I should be happy about it or just ignore it but honestly I can't do anything...things happen in our life without we realizing it but one thing I believe is everything happened for a reason.If that is the best for the person so let it happen.I am happy for any changes but deep in my heart I am bit sad for the changes..hahaha its kind of funny why should I sad about that but yeah just learn to accept that the person deserved the best.again I felt a bit guilty about what I had done by giving wrong perception about that person..sorry for that and just wanna wish all the best for the changes.
hahahah then you Nernny..stop blaming yourself.everything was good now...no worries yeah.

The Good in Guilt

Did you know that guilt can be good? Guilt means that your conscience is working. The time to be concerned is when you don't feel guilt, when you can sin against God again and again and feel no remorse or sense of wrongdoing.
If you are a believer—one of His sons or daughters—and you go astray, the Holy Spirit will convict you of your sin. He will call you on it, because He loves you. He will reprove you, just like a father reproves his child.God disciplines His own children.
When you know you have sinned, the devil says, "Run! Don't go to God!" He will try to drive you away into despair.But the Holy Spirit says, "Repent—now." So that is what you need to do. Ask for God's forgiveness. And once you have, don't keep going over and over it again.
You should not choose to remember what God has chosen to forget. God has a big eraser. And if He has used it your life, then be thankful that your sin is not only forgiven, but it is forgotten.

"The Lord discipline those he loves, and he punishes each one he accepts as his child." Hebrews 12:6

Jesus cares!!!!

Throughout life, we are all faced with fears of the unknown and personal problems that seem hopeless or scary, and it is so easy to get caught up in our emotions, forgetting to look for God. In some situations, we may even find ourselves wondering if God is really aware of our problems, and doubt if He really cares, but 1 Peter 5:7 is a sweet reminder that He is aware, He does care, and He is with us.

1 Peter 5:7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you (NLT)

Colossians 1:10 (AMP)

Walk,Live and Conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him and a desiring to please Him in all things, bearing fruit in every good work and steadily growing and increasing in and by the knowledge of God with fuller, deeper, and clearer insight,acquaintance, and recognition.
Amen.God Bless You!

Important things that you should know about me

hahahha welcome back:)

After one week break now I am back to my sweet room,meet my Meg and Max..my strawberry pillow hehehe and studies again.

There is something that keep on playing in my head through out this week..and during our cg in EH SA last Friday i got the question for ice-breaking..'What are the important things that people should know about you".I remember I shared with them about myself of being so kindhearted until the point I will forget about my own needs for others.But actually there is something in my mind that I really want to tell...

I am a type of person who likes to share but actually at the same time I am very SECRETIVE.I will share those things that I think necessary and I will keep the rest which for me unnecessary things as secret.But today as we talking and discuss during SPK in SIB Kajang,I realize that I am too secretive and because of that I limit God to work in my life.I keep all my problems in me and i pretend that I can handle it.I like to listen to others problem and I always think that I no need to tell my problems because I do not want people around me to worry about myself..or in other word I do not like to get sympathy from other people.

I always want to look strong but actually I am not.I only share my big problem with God and He knows everything about me.But being honest with you I am tired of pretending for who am I.It has been 4 years that I trying to look strong but this year as I walk to new season of spiritual life I told God that I am giving up of pretending.I want to release everything.so I pray that He will give me the courage to start being open step by step.."Keterbukaan adalah awal dari pemulihan".I really believe on this and I will do it.Its hard but through God I can do everything.Amen:)

Sabah Trip

yeah..i can't believe now I am in Sabah spending my CNY break for freeeeeeee.hahahha it was great and i really thank God for helping me.honestly i do not know the road and not familiar with Kota Kinabalu but God sending me my cousin to taught me to go around Kota Kinabalu and guess what....i can remember the road hallelujah!!sometimes its hard but God strengthen me all the time and i am so grateful that He is so loving!!!

Thank You Jesus!