Do Not Fear

11days passed...I think I still not yet really ready with my new semester-new subjects-new responsibility-new juniors and friend yeah!But as I sat down this morning and read Fresh Start, God gives me new strength again to face this new semester Halleluyah!!

One of my favorite verse-Jeremiah 29:11), it really gives me new hope today again and again even though I've been reading this verse many times!WOW

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”(Jeremiah 29:11)

I quote some from the article Fresh Start which really caught my heart..I hope it blesses you as well beloved:)

"Be encouraged as you enter into this next season, be expecting God to show you new things, give you a fresh start; perhaps at school, with friends and family, with a job. Be encouraged to be yourself, don’t take hold of pressures others may be holding out there for you. Walk your journey, and watch yourself be transformed as God works in you and through you.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10)

God is with you where ever you are. Be expecting great things; what happened last year is over, what happened yesterday is over. 

“What is impossible with man is possible with God.”(Luke 18:27)… 

Today is a “Fresh Start.”

Beloved..

So let us start our day today..those who start their new life or new semester maybe new family hahah-leave all behind our worries and fear.God is greater than anything.Continue to trust Him ya.Have a good day people!

God bless

Love Letter

My Princess,

I am the vine—your spiritual lifeline—and you are My beautiful branch that produces fruit for all to taste. I am in you and with you so that you flourish. We are eternally connected.

You will never feel alone or abandoned as long as you stay connected to Me. Wherever you are I am there, ready to give you whatever you need for that moment in time. I delight in flowing through you, My precious one. I will never disconnect our relationship even if you try to run from Me. My loving arms are always open to welcome you home.

Always remember that nothing you do or say will ever change My love for you. So stay close to the Vine, My love.

Love,

Your King, the Vine

Why am I here?

PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE

I read this book 4 years ago and really I recommend everyone to read it!

That was the first time I started to plan to be open and try to discover what I really like to do but then after that I forgot about them until 4 months ago God showed me something about what I can do in the future which working among the poor but not that clear.

During EARC I shared about my dream for the first time! And during Exist Conference end of last month again I have opportunity to share about my passion. Somehow they are just so 

related and continually right! And this is the most exciting part!

Last Friday I have the chance to join Stesen Kesegaran Pemimpin Muda (SKPM) at SIB Seremban. Actually at the first place I can’t join because we suppose to have Prayer Retreat but it was cancelled! God really wants me to join SKPM for one big reason-TO DISCOVER MY PURPOSE IN LIFE. During the first night Pr.Lam was asking us to share with the person next to us about what is our purpose in life-honestly I can’t even tell them out..its because I don’t have the clear purpose. What I know my purpose in this earth is to bring as many souls as I can to know Jesus as their Personal Lord and Savior. And…during SKPM I found that actually the Great Commission is the general purpose to each one of us believers! But other than that God has prepared us our own specific purpose in this earth. Thank God during the last day of SKPM I finally get my specific purpose in this life which is;

“Tujuan Peribadi saya ialah Mengasihi,Mendidik orang miskin terutamanya golongan kanak-

kanak dan muda-mudi dengan Menghidupkan pendidikan dan kerohanian mereka”

Let me tell you something-when you finally found your specific purpose in this earth it doesn’t mean that you can show off to others that you are better than them. Its actually a sign that you have to get up and be really serious in your journey with God! Its not an easy process-it requires high discipline! That specific purpose will only just a statement forever if we don’t do any effort to make it real nor to fulfill it right? It needs your first step to move on!

As I started my new semester with new responsibilities there is one thing that I really want to thank God with-I get a single room for the first time!

This is not my room hahha (I wish I will get this room)

 Being in a single room means I can really practice to discipline my self especially in my spiritual growth since no one is watching over me while I am in my room (Except God la hihi)..I have my own freedom to do what I want to but this thought came to my mind yesterday-this is the time God will see how serious am I to grow closer and spent more time with Him. Wow its really a challenge for me to learn quieten myself from my busyness and take time to think back, do reflection and most important is to spend more time with Daddy.If God has brought me up 

until this stage why am I,myself can’t give my best respond kan.

So my beloved…Don’t wait until its too late until you discover your real purpose in this earth. The biggest tragedy in this world is not death but live without purpose. That right,don’t die with all your unused talents. 

Dont't be like the headless chicken-moving around without knowing 
where to go!



Start to discover what really you want to do while you in earth and glorify God’s name with it! 

Colossians 1:9-12 (ESV)

 And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God. May you be strengthened with all power, according to His glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy, giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light.

God bless people!

KOVOSIHAN-ANUGERAH-GRACE

Finally I found the song Amazing Grace in Rungus version. This song really touched my life and we sang this song during the last worship during EARC..and that was the first time I found the Indonesian version hahha.

I KOVOSIHAN NU TUHAN (Rungus)

I kovosihan Nu Tuhan

Minanapul dohon

I gulu napalid oku

Ikau Pinemumui

Notudukan Nu rumonok

Ino ginavo ku

Tinanus Nu I rosi ku

Tu kasip sid Dikau

Ogumu o kosusaan

O navazaan ku

Nga Ikau ne mozo vozo

Minamasi dohon

I Tuhan tatap asamod

Kumaa sid dohon

I boros Dau o kolig ku

Sid koposizan ku

AJAIB BENAR ANUGERAH (Indonesian)

Ajaib benar anugerah
pembaru hidupku
Ku hilang, buta, bercela
Oleh-Nya ‘ku sembuh

Ketika insaf ‘ku cemas
Sekarang ‘ku lega
Syukur bebanku t’lah lepas
Berkat anugerah

Ku dapat janji yang teguh
Ku harap sabda-Nya
Dan Tuhanlah perisaiku
Tetap selamanya

AMAZING GRACE

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine 

tHE ugLY tRuth???

Beloved..

When you faced hard situation,

When you feel very bad feeling,

When you want to run away from knowing the truth but you end up knowing the ugly truth,

What will you do?

As for me I will not going anywhere because I still have my faithfull God.

This song strengthens me a lot..

This song is  about how faithful God is to us,

Jesus our LORD never leave us aloneJ

He is my Daddy and my Bestfriend!

Halleluyah!

Ada Satu Sobatku Yang Setia
Tak Pernah Dia Tinggalkan Diriku
Di Waktu Aku Susah, Waktu Ku Sendirian
Dia S’lalu Menemani Diriku

Nama-Nya Yesus, Nama-Nya Yesus
Nama Yesus Yang Menghibur Hatiku
Nama-Nya Yesus, Nama-Nya Yesus
Nama Yesus Yang Menghibur Hatiku

Terima Kasih YESUS!

I'll never be the same :)))))

Happy Day

The greatest day in history

Death is beaten

You have rescued me

Sing it out

Jesus is alive

Empty cross

And empty grave

Life eternal

You have won the day

Shout it out

Jesus is alive

He's alive

Oh happy day

Happy day

You wash my sin away

Oh happy day

Happy day

I'll never be the same

Oh no

Forever I am changed

When I stand in that place

Free at last

Meeting face to face

I am Yours

Jesus you are mine

Endless joy and perfect peace

Earthly pain finally will cease

Celebrate, Jesus is alive

Yeah, He's alive

And oh, what a glorious day

What a glorious way

That you have saved me

And oh, what a glorious day

What a glorious name, yeah

Oh happy day

Happy day

You wash my sin away

Oh happy day

Happy day

I'll never be the same

Oh happy day

Happy day

You wash my sin away

Oh happy day

Happy day

I'll never be the same

Oh no

Forever I am changed

What a glorious, glorious day

I'll never be the same

Birthday Wishes

Rebuilding the broken walls

Shalom people!

It almost a month I spent my holiday in my home sweet home. There are many things happened in my life when I met many new people at our new home, new community and new church. Yet I was very grateful to have the chance to know each one of those people who really teach me about humbleness. The people who thirst with the truth! I am thankful to have the chance to be with them, to pray together with them, to worship God together and to share with them about God’s love especially the kids..they are so adorable haha. I learnt many new things too including all the labor work hahha since we are helping to build our new church and also I start to help in our rubber farm. Very tired but it so much fun to do all that actually!

O ya I just finished read one very good book-“Melayani daripada kehidupan dalaman yang kuat” by Susan Tang. The most important part that really caught my heart was the intimacy with God in our ministry. Many God’s servant so excited to preach about God but they do not have the new manna from God. Yes they still preach the Gospel to the people but no power. There reason is one thing-they are too busy to serve and to preach the Gospel but forget to build strong relationship with God. It’s very simple concept, if you have not spending time to listen and to grow closer with God you will never get the new message and captured God’s heart! You may able to impress many people with your talents or your teaching about God but  do you still remember this verse:

Matthew 7:21-23 (ESV)

(21)  "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven.

(22)  On that day many will say to Me, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and cast out demons in Your name, and do many mighty works in Your name?'

(23)  And then will I declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness.'

As I read this book, I ask forgiveness from Daddy because I admit I am in that group of people who forget the real quiet time with God. Of course I still do quiet time but just a normal routine without any expectations to know God’s more. I can say that my quiet time was in rush moment..I can’t really spent quality time with Daddy because I just too busy. And because of that I run the race without the baton from Daddy to pass on to His people..actually I just wasting my energy to share about Daddy if I do not have what Daddy really wants me to bring. I do not have the new manna because I don’t take time to wait and to listen. BANG BANG BOOM…..what a big bomb in my spiritual life. I let the big hole of my wickedness grow and grow until it ruins my spiritual walls and now its collapse!

However I thank God for the chance once again to rebuild the walls of my spiritual life by starting over again. The time of refreshing and to come back to God to capture His heart again.

Friends,

Its never too late to come back to God for no matter how far to have gone from God. Its better to come back now rather than at the end we are not allowed to enter His presence because of our wickedness and because we never have intimacy with God.

“Pekerjaan-pekerjaan luaranmu nampaknya memuaskan tetapi niat-niat dalamanmu dan keadaan hatimu tidak menepati sasaranKu. Aku nampak apa yang ada di dalam, keadaan hatimu yang merosot dan tercemar; kamu pun ketahui perkara ini tetapi kamu tidak berbuat apa-apa. Kamu tidak pernah pun datang kepadaKu untuk penyucian, kamu terus melakukan semua ini dengan cara ‘perintah diri sendiri’, kamu menutupi pereputan di dalam diri kamu dan niat-niat hina kamu dengan perbuatan-perbuatan yang nampaknya mulia di luar. Aku tidak pernah pun terlibat dalam apa yang kamu buat”

Keadaan rohani dalaman yang merosot menjadikan mereka tidak berkuasa lagi untuk bertahan di dalam hadirat Tuhan. Walupun Tuhan tidak menamatkan pelayanan mereka, Tuhan tidak memberi kepada mereka keistimewaan suci, kekuatan mahupun keupayaan untuk memasuki tempat yang suci untuk mempersembahkan kemenyan korban di hadapanNya.

(Melayani Daripada Kehidupan Dalaman Yang Kuat-Page54)

SPECIAL THANKS

My dream come true!

I never think that I will be able to meet many people from different nations during the past 7 days in EARC 2011.

I have many things to thank God for all the blessings.

I thank God for the financial support that enables me to join EARC.

I thank God for the great people from the Malaysian delegate especially the staffs of FES Malaysia.

I thank God for the uniqueness and joyful group member in my small group.

I thank God for my special roommate.

I thank God for all the speakers especially for the Bible expositions, my workshop Integral Mission, and the plenary 2-Mr Ben hahah

I thank God for all the new info shared from different countries and nations.

I thank God for all the new friends that I met.

I thank God for NUS especially the Eusoff Hall-I love the room!

I thank God for the opportunities to try different type of food hahahhahaha

I thank God that I came back safely yaya

Lastly, I want to give my BIG THANKS TO GOD for waking me up and enable me to dream-big dream.

WAKE UP AND DREAM-THE TIME IS NOW!

WISDOM

These few days the word WISDOM just cannot erase from my mind. It keep on playing in my head since last Saturday. During our SBP (Sepakat Bersama Pelayan) in my church, I clearly remembered what Ps.Simon prayed for me. He prayed that God will grant me with His wisdom. Then after that the next Monday, I checked my email and the Scripture memorization from Mindful Group was WISDOM!

Spiritual Blessing--WISDOM

that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to
you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, 
Ephesians 1:17 [NKJV]

Believers, we are blessed with the Wisdom of God !

After that I think that was just coincidence. And I was looking for articles about prayer and I found article about King Salomon asking wisdom from God (I Kings 3:7-11).

1Kings 3:7-11 (KJV)

(7)  And now, O LORD my God, thou hast made thy servant king instead of David my father: and I am but a little child: I know not how to go out or come in.

(8)  And thy servant is in the midst of thy people which thou hast chosen, a great people, that cannot be numbered nor counted for multitude.

(9)  Give therefore thy servant an understanding heart to judge thy people, that I may discern between good and bad: for who is able to judge this thy so great a people?

It doesn’t stop there. The next day which today hahha, I was listening to John Piper’s sermon about Considering Your Calling. And the Scripture was taken from ;

1Corinthians  1:30  (ITB)

(30)  Tetapi oleh Dia kamu berada dalam Kristus Yesus, yang oleh Allah telah menjadi hikmat bagi kita. Ia membenarkan dan menguduskan dan menebus kita.

New Rhema today:

We will be able to find and get the wisdom in one only way-TO BE UNITE WITH JESUS. It means wisdom only can found when we choose not to just stay near Him but to choose live in Him-being united with Christ!

Wow! When reflect on my ‘wisdom journey’ these few days…I realize that I have no other way to get that wisdom other than to live in Jesus alone. To be unite with Jesus I cannot only remain in my everyday Bible reading and prayer like -it must be something more than that

-RADICAL INTIMACY WITH GOD! SUPERNATURAL AND EXTRA QUITE TIME WITH GOD.

Everyone needs wisdom to live wisely especially me hahah. Well being honest I am not in smart people group. My language is not that excellent-English,Malay even Rungus. I realize that I wouldn’t get the wisdom I want and need in my degree class but only in Christ alone.True kan.. I believe just like King Salomon, God will grant us with eternal wisdom too that enable us to understand His Word, His will and above all to glorify His Name in this earth and heavenJ

I am 23years old. Sometimes I feel so envy when I look at the young people who are very good in God’s Word. That was because God gave them wisdom to understand His Word. I want that too. Last Friday something weird happened, suddenly I felt that I am very very hungry-not food ya..hunger of God’s Word! I really feel and sure that this is time that I cannot just read His Word like usual but studying Hid Word deeply. So I need help from the Holy Spirit my Great Teacher and my friends surrounding. Do you know something, I don’t like Bible Study with others. Maybe because I think I wouldn’t be able to contribute anything in that discussion since I am lack of Bible knowledge but now I should change that negative perspective. I need both-personal Bible study and Group Bible Study. I want to do this in PERKEB, KLS and also my family.

Dear DADDY,

I know I have nothing without You. That is why I need You to help me-grant  me with Your eternal wisdom so that I will be able to understand what You want me to know through Your Word everyday in my life. I can’t offer anything other than my soul and my whole life to keep on studying Your trust and apply them in my life to bless others.

In Jesus’ name,amen.

Your Precious Daughter,

Princess Narnia