When I choose to believe HIM

Hi everyone. These past two weeks, being honest it was my trouble week when I faced financial problem very badly. But out of that i learn a lot especially in TRUSTING GOD'S POWER.I did trust God..always but not 100% especially when it comes to my finance. I told God that I trust Him but yet i do my own effort to find the blessings or money by asking my siblings. Can you imagine just after i give big amount(for me hahha) of offerings during church, i'll smsing my sister or brother to bank in money for me.I know if God asked me to give the money i left for offerings He will bless me in return..but instead of trusting He will do that I do my own effort..you know why?because I scared God will not help me in right time.

But last two weeks..i made a commitment before God that I will trust Him 100%. During that time I left 8rgt with me on Monday.after bought my dinner i left 6rgt. and I received the new agreement from KUOK Fundation for my scholarship. I have to get witness signature from comissionary of oath or lawyer for my guarantors..which I have no idea where to get all that. so with the 6rgt i told God..
"help me,I want to trust YOU"
and praise the Lord Carol offered me to send me to the Pejabat Daerah Hulu Langat to get the sign but yet we didn't get any. so i came back to room and still have money for my dinner and left 3rgt.

I dont know how to settle the problem and during that time i left 3rgt with me.i have no other choice by sending all the documents back to my hometown and ask my sister settle it there. since it is my hometown so it easier to get signature from the Pejabat Daereh.and then..another problem come..my frind asks me to go out for dinner and i ony have 3rgt with for the whole week. by faith i said yes. and you know what we didn't go out for dinner because he invited us to had dinner at his house for FREE!!!!God is good right..

and now back to my scholarship documents.i left 3rgt and i have to send the document through pos ekspress and the price is 4.50rgt and i left 3rgt! i cried and try to ask my brother if he knew any lawyer to sign the agreement but his friend is also in Sabah.i told my brother that i want to send it back to my sister. he said fine..and i was so struggling should i tell him that i have not enough money. I remember i tell God, "Lord i want to tell my brother that i don't have enough money.please help me". so i told my brother and halleluyah he give me 50rgt.

50rgt..its that enough?actually i still have farewell for that weekend and after the farewell + my offering and tithe + train + taxi.....i left 10rgt with me.on the next day i left 3rgt after bought my dinner and print my notes. again i put the money i left on my table and tell God..
"Lord,i left this much for this week.i know You did miracle for me last week..and i want to believe in You for this week as well"

the next day we have prayer meeting in church and i am the worship leader (for the first time).i left 3rgt with me..and coins with me. so i was telling myself to not use the 3rgt for my dinner otherwise i have no money to go church. but yet during our macro teaching my coursemates was teaching about food and they give me the balance of the bread and cake to me..for FREE!!!God is good all the time..He gave me food when i don't have.Thank You Lord.

so yeah,i use the coins to pay my bus and God is so awesome that i can get my dinner for free and 1.50 supper.and left coins and the 2rgt notes with me.i still want to believe in God that i will wait and continue believing Him.the next day i ate my dinner for 2.50rgt. so it means i left 1.40 1ocents coins with me. its Friday..and i left 1.40 coins. I read this bible verse:

Matthew 6: 31-33
“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’.
These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.
Seek the Kingdom of God all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need"

God knew my needs..He knew i left 1.40 10cent coins.HE KNEW! so am i worried that time..yeah i am but yet i tell myself to hold on To God. and yeah i get my dinner that night for free again. see...how God work in our life in the the of trouble when we choose to believe His Power!..Praise the Lord!!

the story doesn't stop here..every weekend i have to go back to my brothers' house for our family prayer meeting.so how am i going there with the 1.40 10cents coins??it wouldn't be enough.so again i told God,
"Lord i still want to serve You in my family tomorrow.so i will ask my brother to fetch me from my hostel. Show me Your Mighty Power and make my brother says,yes"

the simple prayer a bit forcing God but yet He answered my prayer!my brother not just fetch me from my hostel but he also send me back and yeah give me money! HALLELUYAH.

is there anything that impossible in God?
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IN GOD.
"This is my vow that I made before God last week,:
" Dear Lord,
if You deliver me from this financial problem, I will use every money, every blessing and everything You give me to glorify Your Name and for Your Kingdom. I will give beyond my tithe, I will use the gift to bless Your ministry and continue to trust in You.amen"

I was tempted to not fulfill my vows that i made before God but the Holy Spirit keep on telling me..BE FAITHFUL AND GRATEFUL. and during that sunday service, Ps.Davis said in his sermon that
THE MORE YOU GIVE THE MORE YOU WILL RECEIVED!
I was so bless with this statement from my church bulettin:
:Allah berusaha memberi dan memberi adalah caraNya Tuhan.Hidup dalam Tuhan berarti menjadi seorang pemberi.

"Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully. Each one must give as he has decided in his heart, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
(2Corinthian 9:6-7)"

So my friend, remember that we didn't own anything in this world. everything owned by God.so if you want the best from God..give Him the best..serve Him the best.everything must the best!

He is concerned

I checked my e-mail today and one of my friend sent this e-mail. honestly i was so blessed with it. It touched my heart and encourage me to trust God more.

" Hi Sis Nernny,

It is so nice knowing a person like you. Thank you so much for your friendliness. I appreciate that. I do hope that you do have a fine evening today.

God has a lot instore for you. Keep your eyes focused on Him. While you are young, make it your priority to please the Lord. Ask Him to guide you in every decision you have to make. Since the day I chose to be obedient to Him, He has never failed me and He can do the same for you.. Trust me He will give you the joy to face every challenges in your life.
Nothing that happens to your life happens in isolation. God is ever watchful of you and He is concerned about every details of your live so give yourself to Him.

Love you and God bless."

Call Upon ME

The Lord says:
"CALL UPON ME in the day of trouble;I will deliver and you shall glorify ME."
(Psalm 50:15)

OUR GOD IS BIGGER THAN OUR SITUATION!!

Dear Lord,
I don't want to see how big is my problem,
or how much i have
or how difficult it to me
but
I WANT TO LOOK UPON YOU..CALL UPON YOUR NAME AND PROCLAIM YOUR PROMISED TO ME THAT YOU WILL DELIVER ME from my situation and problem.
HELP ME TO CONTINUE TRUSTING YOU for the things that I can't see and even beyond my imagination.
I JUST WANT TO TRUST YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
AMEN

THE RIGHT HELP

I read this from Our Daily Bread Devotion and I am blessed with it.

"There is no greater help in our time of need than God. He alone can carry us through the trials and crises of life, and we have His word that He will never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).

When crisis hits, we don’t have to stand alone. We have the right help. We can depend on God to be the greatest ally we could ever know. Lean on Him.

When a crisis looms before you,
Don’t face it on your own;
Seek advice from godly counsel,
And take it to God’s throne.

Our greatest hope here below is to get help from God above"

Halleluyah Amen!

Stand Firm and Trust

TRUST IN THE LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
(Proverbs 3:5-7)


I read this verse last week but again this verse keep on playing on my head until now. Last Sunday Ps.David talked about "Perjanjian Berkat-Blessing Covenant". Do you know that we have Blessing Covenant with God signed by the Blood of Christ Jesus on the cross?what does this covenant talked about?

Ps.David gave us very wonderful definition on what is covenant:
"Perjanjian bermaksud KESEPAKATAN yang dibuat oleh kedua-dua pihak dan kedua-dua pihak BERSETUJU dengan syarat-syarat yang dibuat dengan memberi RESPON YANG BENAR.
Perjanjian berkat=Tuhan berjanji akan memberkati kita berkelimpahan tetapi dengan syarat kita HARUS sepakat denganNya.Sepakat dengan visi dan Panggilan Tuhan.

"You shall remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you power to get wealth, that He may confirm His covenant that He swore to your fathers, as it is this day.
(Deuteronomy 8:18)

Yesterday I listen to one sermon about Trusting God which taken from Proverbs 3:5-7. The speaker said we will say,"I TRUST YOU LORD" but still in our lifestyle we lean on other thing.it might be our family,friends or our job.we said that we trust the Lord but we do not lean on Him 100%.That is the problem!and I tell you i am one of the people who said" I trust the Lord' yet I am still leaning on my family,especially when it comes to my finance.

Like Ps.David said about the Blessings Covenant, what I have to do is to give Him the correct respond in trusting Him. Instead of making my own effort to "find" the blessing and making my own solutions to "get" the blessings,
I SHOULD JUST TRUST HIM-STAND FIRM IN THE LIVING HOPE IN CHRIST JESUS.
Actually I used to faced this problem when I want to really trust God. Is it very hard?I tell you it easy for me to say I trust You Lord for no matter happen but deep in my heart I doubt God..especially when it seems no changes..nothing happen..its still the same!I DOUBT GOD..I running from the hope that God has given me..the hope and the promise God has given us that He is ALWAYS WITH US (Matthew 28:20b).During my quiet time, i was sitting worrying about my problem instead of casting all my anxieties on Him :(

GOD CARES FOR ME-HE CARES FOR YOU!
(1Peter 5:7)

And today since last week the Holy Spirit keep on reminding and strengthens me to TRUST HIM-I will listen and obey..

not trusting Him but at the same time leaning on other thing
not trusting Him but still doubt His Power
not trusting Him but have no FAITH!

I don’t want that type of trust anymore. I dare to HOPE unto God’s promises..
dare to WAIT for His PERFECT TIME.

So You and me..let us take off our “fake trust” and putting on the NEW TRUST AND NEW HOPE IN GOD that He is always there for you and me for no matter happen.
This is one of my favorite song..the lyric really spoke to me to not GIVE UP UN TRUSTING GOD and remember what is impossible with men is possible with God.(Luke 18:27)


HANYA KEPADA-NYA KU ‘KAN BERLARI
DI SAAT KU BIMBANG DALAM HIDUPKU
YANG AKU PERCAYA DALAM HADIRAT-NYA
ADA KEKUATAN YANG BARU
WALAU KU MELANGKAH DALAM TEKANAN
BADAI PENCOBAAN DATANG MENGHADANG
YANG AKU PERCAYA DALAM HADIRAT-NYA
ADA KEKUATAN YANG BARU
KU KAN TERBANG TINGGI BAGAI RAJAWALI
DI ATAS SEGALA PERSOALAN HIDUPKU
DAN AKU PERCAYA SAAT KU BERSAMA DIA
TIADA YANG MUSTAHIL BAGI DIA

So dare to change?Dare to hope? I dare to hope and trust God.How about you?
God bless you!

Thank You Daddy

These few days a lot of thing happened..bad and good.
First..
My brother asked me to conduct our family prayer meeting every weekend.I told you i almost give up to pray for my family members when i saw no improvement and i can say the situation just so bad.but God never let me give up.He answered my prayer.I can't tell you hows my feeling when i received the sms from my brother.I was so so excited and I thank God for opening door for me. i am busy with assignments,i don't know but this semester is the busiest semester for me.but i ask God to help me.if i wait for my free time i guess i will never have,so i have to make time.make time for the work God has entrusted me to do..my family.

Second
Last semester i applied scholarship from KUOK Foundation.During my interview i have one document not with me but God opened the door and i get it. i received the letter from them last month.i sent over all the documents needed last month as well. until now i haven't get any call from the Foundation.Last Tuesday i told God,"Lord please do something with my scholarship.i need it.". After that i forgot about it. during my class suddenly i receive a call from the Foundation! the lady told me that i haven't sent back the acceptance letter for my scholarship.I did..but yeah so i sent another copy on that day itself.so now..i just need to wait again for the call from the Foundation. My prayer is i will get it by this month,amen:)

Third
During my micro teaching yesterday my lecturer said i didn't pass up my lesson plan. I did...what happen actually.it seems that everything i sent they didn't receive it?i was very down yesterday..super down.while waiting for the next class i read the online Bible and God showed me this verse:
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice!(Philippians 4:4)

I told God.."Lord its very hard to rejoice in this situation.everything went wrong." but suddenly God made me smile after my evening class. before Raya break i sent e-mail to all my lectures to wish them Selamat Hari Raya. and my lecturer thanked me yesterday. simple Thank You changed my day..because i believe that one day My God will be their God..AMEN!

Fourth
This is the greatest joy yesterday. I ate with my two friends. we shared about what God has done in our life.I ever told you that i am no more OLD NERNNY because God has forgiven me for my sins and now i am the NEW NERNNY. but actually i have one thing i never told anyone except God. but yesterday i told my friend..i can you i fell so so free..God never sees you for what you have done in your past.He has forgiven you!you are new creation in Christ now.that happened to me yesterday! i thanked God for sending my friend for me to share about what happened to me. the great thing was,not only me but she also experience God's freedom after that!Halleluyah!!!i always love this:
"KETERBUKAAN ADALAH AWAL DARI PEMULIHAN"

when i looked back what happen last three days,God worked in my life miraculously..really.
"DADDY,THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.I LOVE YOU"

My Testimony

One very good friend of mine sent me her testimony that she wrote.Believe me her testimony conclude 46 pages..no joke! and i believe too that if we write down everything what God has done is our life..its more than 46 pages of testimony..its countless. I am so happy that she write them down and I am so blessed with each story that she shared.I told her that I want to do the same.

So that when i write down my testimony its not only can be a blessing to others who read it but it also reminds me of God's presence throughout my life, that I can count on Him.One thing I always keep in my mind is,in every moment in my life He was there, He is there, He will be there!I have always thought of my testimony as something I can use to inspire and encourage others, but had never thought actually that I could use it to encourage and inspire myself. God is faithful and He has proved it over and over again. I can look back over my life and trace His hand, feel His presence and trust His purpose.

Daddy, thank You for always working in my life. When I get discouraged, let me see that You worked in my life in the past and You are at work now. Help me to recall my testimony so that I can feel Your presence. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

uNdERStanDING me and yourself?

"I understand..its okey.Don't worry"
This is very familiar and I use it most of the time.I am not really sure either I will say it out to take care of others feeling or because I really meant it.When we want to pleasure someone we sometime ought will say this,just like me.I am not sure about you but yes I did it.

It is hard to understand someone when that person cannot meet our needs..our wishes and our dream? Frankly speaking,it does. Sometimes it leave bitterness in my heart when I am always the one who say" Its okey" even though its not okey. Hypocrite?maybe hahha.

Bitterness is not good!
Hypocrite is not good either!
SO WHAT IS GOOD THEN?

GOD
Forgiveness
Honesty
Loving

Do I have all these?do I need all these to maintain my relationship with others? YES I NEED THAT 100%. why do I say that?because that was what happened to me this few days. when others cannot meet my needs..I turn to God for help and courage..it works!
As I read this verse,It really speaks to me..ngam bah hihi

My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalms 73:26)

So how about you?what makes you able to understand others when the situation seems impossible for you to understand?Jesus is the right answer..Turn to Him and He will make your way.amen

When HE says;"I LOVE YOU"

I PROMISE
When I say I love Jesus..nothing can set us apart
When I say love you..I really meant it
When I say I love my family..that is very true
When I say I love every single of my friends..I will keep it forever

SUDDENLY

When these words appear..
BITTERNESS
ANGRY
DISAPPOINTMENT
GIVE UP
FRUSTRATION
REJECTED
FORGOTTEN
Am I still able to keep my promise?
Am I still able to look up to Jesus for help and hope?
Am I still able to love the people who hates me?
Am I still able to say I love you to the the people who far from me?

ONLY ONE ANSWER
YES I DO!
BECAUSE JESUS ENABLES ME SO!
HOW PROUD AM I TO HAVE A GREAT GOD LIKE HIM
HE IS MY BESTFRIEND,MY LOVER AND MY DADDY!

BUT..there is BUT here.Is it hard to always believing and be positive? I am not a superwoman and what so ever you call it. I am a human being..I did mistakes..I have feeling and I do have my so called bad day. It was a hypocrite of me telling people:
"Don't worry dear,you gonna be okey.God is with you!"
"You can do it'
"It's a process to be matured"
bla bla bla........
and I end up..crying alone and try to raise up my faith in Him..to believe Him that its gonna be okey if I trust Him.

ITS HARD REALLY HARD..i faced it before,every moment when I felt discourage.. maybe even now.Its even harder when the BAD OLD LIFE OF ME confronted me..it tempted me to say "Okeey..I am giving up..I can't do it anymore..I am mess.."

AGAIN BUT..
you know what makes me really awake of feel sympathy of myself? is the people around me.the people that I love around me..am I not important to me?is their problem important than myself...?its sound crazy but that is what i feel..when God showed me what the people around me faced,their mess in life,family problem,financial problem..so much problem...I started telling myself:
'God wants to use you Nernny for these people,the people around you.HE LOVES YOU"
and the simple "I LOVE YOU" from God actually makes me ARISE..

Every morning when I got up,God reminds me on HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME so that I can love others just like HE LOVES ME....that is when the "ME' come in again hahahha..
JESUS LOVES YOU
JESUS LOVES EACH ONE OF YOU
and...yeah JESUS LOVES ME TOO!!!!

LISTENING TO GOD'S VOICE

WHY AM I REALLY WANT TO HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD?
1.So that I can tell Him my problems and my plan and what's happening in my life
2.I want to know what His BEAUTIFUL PLAN for me
3.So that I will know what will happen in my future
and..lots more

BUT

God rebuked me a few days ago about how selfish am I. I want to hear God's voice because I want to know what good things He has for me..in other words I have my own agenda why I really want to listen to His voice. Every morning when I open my Bible I ask God, "Lord,what You have for my situation today?" EVERYTHING WAS ABOUT ME-MYSELF-MY OWN BENEFIT! VERY VERY SELFISH..yeah!I don't do that because I want to know Him more..that is my answer..honest.

BUT AGAIN
For God loves me and rebukes me,I know I have to change. No more ME-MYSELF-MY OWN AGENDA,but I want to listen to Him because I want to know Him more.I want to know His agenda and His desire.Help me to understand You more,to obey You and to be sensitive with You my Lord!amen