John 3: 16 (NLT)
"For God so loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life"
During our service today we sang the song Terlalu Besar by UX Band. Actually its consider new song for me since I never heard of this song before. The lyric was amazing!
TERLALU BESAR (UX BAND)
Telah kulihat bukti kasihMu
Kau menderita gantikanku
Dengan darahMu Kau s'lamatkanku
Kini ku hidup menyenangkanMu
Terlalu besar kasihMu Bapa
Pengorbanan yang Kau b'rikan bagiku
Terlalu mahal darahMu Yesus
Tercurah untuk menebus hidupku
Hidup yang Kau b'rikan bagiku
S'lamatkan dan pulihkanku
Lebih dari segalanya
As we sang it..for me its not just another new song but its really like Daddy's heart for me today. While we continue singing..one by one came to my mind like old film- what happened in my past until how I met Daddy and how He saved me-my journey before and after I met Daddy.
As I looked back what happened in my past and what am I now..one thing that I can say is GRACE. Really an AMAZING GRACE.
What I am now not because of my own strength but all because of His Grace. There is nothing I can proud about my self alone because without Him- I am nothing and useless!
Why?
Before I met Daddy I proclaimed my self as Christian in name and routine but actually I am wrong. Being a Christian does't mean we go church every Sunday..having cross with us all the time or even having a Bible. All those things don't make us a Christian. Christian is not a religion but its about relationship-deep relationship with Jesus Christ who died for our sins-each of us no matter who you are.
Grown up in Christian family taught me about knowing God as our Saviour but it takes me 16 years until I received God as my Personal God and Saviour. Since that I started to follow God seriously plus during my upper secondary school we had Christian Fellowship named Agape Christian Fellowship. So basically from here I started to know God deeper.. involved in prayer meeting, start to do fast and pray and many more- things that I think its enough for my spiritual growth.
After my Form five..everything changed drastically. From an ordinary little girl from small town in Sabah, I moved to Peninsular Malaysia. It was such big shocked for me-the food..language..culture and even the people. Seriously during our first year in college..I have to force my self to learn many things which I never learn before. So being far from family and most importantly my strong Godly community..my journey with Daddy stopped..not because of God gives up on me but I myself ran away from Him. I want to live my own life...still attending church that time but being honest its just another weekend activity for me..Sorry Daddy.
Two and a half years passed.. I graduated then start my job before continuing my study again. Yeah I get job and own money then I felt that I am now adult and I can do anything I want. But I thank God that during that time I didn't stay alone..I just can't imagine what are the worst thing I can do if I stay alone that time. I still keep on running away from God and I don't want Him to interrupt my life and my future..teruk kan Narnia!
Student life again..at first I don't like when I get into UKM during my first year because I know there is a Christian Fellowship (PERKEB) in UKM plus I don't have my good friend with me but then after 2 weeks of my registration Daddy brought her in haha. I just don't want to get involved in anything that related to God..I just felt I don't need Him in my life. Its like everything that I experienced-my sweet journey with Him- during my secondary school just a memory..forgotten memory. But Daddy wouldn't let me run anymore from Him.
UKM..here where I found God back in my life after two years I've been running away from Him. Through PERKEB and my family in SIB Kajang-God caught me until now.
AMAZING GRACE: Loved and Saved by Him
I think that would be the title of my journey with Daddy.
Why amazing grace..there is no good thing in me when I was far away from Daddy. I am nobody but a SINNER who claim His follower but live out a sinful life. There is no hope in me until God found me and caught me back not once but twice-to save me because He loves me sooo much.
So today..its was such great reminder for me when I sang the song "Terlalu Besar"..a reminder to stay close and hold on to God for no matter what will happened now or in the future. Because of His goodness and forgiveness to me I now choose to serve Him alone wherever He placed me. Sometimes as I look at how my friends live out their life..evil thought just came and say..
"In such a young age you can enjoy your life more instead of wasting your time with your so called God"
Does it affect me? YES! But I choose to continue look upon Him-My Daddy and Saviour.
There is no reason I want to waste my life with all the unimportant stuffs that the world try to offer me when at the other hand Daddy offers greater things for me.
I am alive now both physically and spiritually because of His grace and I don't want to take it for granted.
That is why everything I am doing now is all for Him alone.
Life is short so live out your life wisely-don't waste your life!
Really life is short..so everything you do now will effect your eternity..it includes
Whom do you FOLLOW
*When I choose to follow Christ and accept Him as my Personal God and Saviour-my whole life changed..how about you?
What do you do
*What are the things and where do you invest your time, energy, money or even your life? Does it helps you to grow closer with God?
Who do you mix with
*Having strong community in Christ really a good medium to help you to stay closer with God to remind when we forget to watch out when we careless and to support when we fall down. Do you have one?
Everything I am now nothing I can boast because I know its all because of His grace..
Daddy..
Thank You...Big Thank You
For saving my life and bringing me until this stage..
For changing my life from nothing to something great..
For teaching me new things about life and people..
For being patient with me..
For always be with me..to love and to care for me.
Help me and guide me to live out the rest of my life-all out for You alone!
Narnia
