God Will Finish What He Has Started In My Life

"Instead of making one more plan, give your plans completely to Me, and let Me finish the work I started in you"

Interruption

"Let God Interrupt Your Life"

This is one thing that really stuck in my head after our Bible Exposition on the Gospel of Luke with Sis Annate last two weeks in PERKEB. Cool huh?

Interruption-I don't like it because it will effect everything I planned earlier. But how about God's interruption?How could that can happened? As I shared this morning during our morning prayer- Zachariah & Elisabeth and Joseph and Mary being interrupted by God with the news of the two baby boys birth in their family. Both are impossible like what we learnt during our training last Saturday with Sis Kim Cheng. Baby John and Baby Jesus both are miracle and God did it with the work of the Holy Spirit (Luke 1:1-38). But even though both are impossible-but God's interruption changes their lives and even ours! Not only that that's why we can celebrate Christmas until now- a great remembrance of Baby Jesus' birth in this world to save each of us.

How was the feel of being interrupted by God? For me- it messed up my plan-my own plan. That's why we can't rely on our own plan but rather His plan (padan muka hahha). At this age (I am getting older no!!!!)..I faced confusion-distraction until there is a moment where I really don't know what to do-in my future. I have the mission but to reach that point I am clueless-seriously! and God's interruption..Oh please I can't do that anymore and  I reached the point where I have no choice but to completely trusting Him.

I guess..I am sure- that is what Daddy wants from me-to fully surrender to Him-His plan-His guidance-my everything: Family-Future-Ministry-Relationship-Dream-Everything!

Just like what this song about..

Ini Aku Semua Miliku

Kuserahkan PadaMu Tuhan

Penyesalan Dan Kebanggaan

Suka Dan Duka Semua Ku Serahkan

Yang Telah Lalu Yang Kan Datang

Hasrat Dan Harapan Yang Terbayang

Masa Depan Dan Rencanaku

S'mua Ku Serahkan Dalam TanganMu

Ku Persembahkan Hidupku

KepadaMu Tuhan

Tuk' KemuliaanMu

Ku Berikan Hidup Ini

Sebagai Persembahan

Yang Berkenan PadaMu

Daddy,

I know without You I am nothing

Allowing You to interrupt my life isn't easy for me

But I want to

Help me to get through this

And really I want to finish well the race to set before me..

So yeah You have fully in charge of my life now and onwards..

Let my life be a living sacrifice before You

Hau Hadomi O Aman!

*Beloved..How about you? Would you dare to join me to allow God interrupting your life?

Daddy is Fully In Charge

Time flies super fast and without realizing now its already December..Yeah its December!!!! Its not just my most favorite month but its also a month where we celebrate Jesus' Birthday!!!! and not forgotten time for me to spend my Christmas with my big family :)

Last two weeks we had our CG in Bagan Lalang Resort..my first CG as Admin and really Daddy is soooo good for all His help especially with our worship team. All of us were first time joining CG as in worship team and really we were so nervous and scared on what to do at first. But then Daddy helps us and me myself saw how Daddy take in charge when we lean on Him :)

After CG we had our preparation for Christmas concert in my church..and again this year I in charge of the musical drama. It was quite hard from the beginning. Plus everyone was busy with exam and work so we couldn't get much practice until the day before the concert finally we had our first full rehearsal and it wasn't move smoothly and I was sooo worry what will happen during the concert itself. I couldn't sleep the night before because I was so worry plus I wasn't feel well that time but really this verse strengthens me,
"I love You, O LORD, my strength"-Psalm 18:1

I was so weak that time and kind of lost my hope especially with the drama..but Daddy's love really awakes me and He rise my spirit to just hold on to Him..and guess what..He really take in charge and me myself was so blessed with the drama! The team in drama musical did super good performance-congrats and big thank you team! Apart from that the most- I saw once again His miracle took place when we allowed Him to work and fully in charge.. THANK YOU DADDY!

So really this past two weeks I experience Daddy's faithfulness and miracle. His blessings are countless and it makes me to continue look upon Him for no matter what will happen. And really this song is just show my truly heart for Daddy..

Ajar Aku Tuhan

Jalan Dalam T'rangMu

B'rikanku Hati Yang Teguh

MengasihiMu

Ku Puji Kau Selama-lamanya

Seg'nap Hatiku Seg'nap Kuatku

Seg'nap Hidpku Ku S'rahkan PadaMu

Jadilah Sesuai K'hendakMu

Ajar Aku Yesus Tuhan

Teach Me Your Way O Lord

And I Walk In Your Truth

Give Me An Undivided Heart

That I May Fear Your Name

I Will Praise You Forever And Ever

With All Of My Heart With All Of My Strength

And All Of My Life I Offer To You Lord

Let You Will Be Done In My Life

Teach Your Way Teach Me Your Way

Amazing Grace:Loved and saved by Him

John 3: 16 (NLT)

"For God so loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life"

During our service today we sang the song Terlalu Besar by UX Band. Actually its consider new song for me since I never heard of this song before. The lyric was amazing!

TERLALU BESAR (UX BAND)

Telah kulihat bukti kasihMu

Kau menderita gantikanku

Dengan darahMu Kau s'lamatkanku

Kini ku hidup menyenangkanMu

Terlalu besar kasihMu Bapa

Pengorbanan yang Kau b'rikan bagiku

Terlalu mahal darahMu Yesus

Tercurah untuk menebus hidupku

Hidup yang Kau b'rikan bagiku

S'lamatkan dan pulihkanku

Lebih dari segalanya

As we sang it..for me its not just another new song but its really like Daddy's heart for me today. While we continue singing..one by one came to my mind like old film- what happened in my past until how I met Daddy and how He saved me-my journey before and after I met Daddy.

As I looked back what happened in my past and what am I now..one thing that I can say is GRACE. Really an AMAZING GRACE.

What I am now not because of my own strength but all because of His Grace. There is nothing I can proud about my self alone because without Him- I am nothing and useless!

Why?

Before I met Daddy I proclaimed my self as Christian in name and routine but actually I am wrong. Being a Christian does't mean we go church every Sunday..having cross with us all the time or even having a Bible. All those things don't make  us a Christian. Christian is not a religion but its about relationship-deep relationship with Jesus Christ who died for our sins-each of us no matter who you are.

Grown up in Christian family taught me about knowing God as our Saviour but it takes me 16 years until I received God as my Personal God and Saviour. Since that I started to follow God seriously plus during my upper secondary school we had Christian Fellowship named Agape Christian Fellowship. So basically from here I started to know God deeper.. involved in prayer meeting, start to do fast and pray and many more- things that I think its enough for my spiritual growth. 

After my Form five..everything changed drastically. From an ordinary little girl from small town in Sabah, I moved to Peninsular Malaysia. It was such big shocked for me-the food..language..culture and even the people. Seriously during our first year in college..I have to force my self to learn many things which I never learn before. So being far from family and most importantly my strong Godly community..my journey with Daddy stopped..not because of God gives up on me but I myself ran away from Him. I want to live my own life...still attending church that time but being honest its just another weekend activity for me..Sorry Daddy.

Two and a half years passed.. I graduated then start my job before continuing my study again. Yeah I get job and own money then I felt that I am now adult and I can do anything I want. But I thank God that during that time I didn't stay alone..I just can't imagine what are the worst thing I can do if I stay alone that time. I still keep on running away from God and I don't want Him to interrupt my life and my future..teruk kan Narnia!

Student life again..at first I don't like when I get into UKM during my first year because I know there is a Christian Fellowship (PERKEB) in UKM plus I don't have my good friend with me but then after 2 weeks of my registration Daddy brought her in haha. I just don't want to get involved in anything that related to God..I just felt I don't need Him in my life. Its like everything that I experienced-my sweet journey with Him- during my secondary school just a memory..forgotten memory. But Daddy wouldn't let me run anymore from Him.

UKM..here where I found God back in my life after two years I've been running away from Him. Through PERKEB and my family in SIB Kajang-God caught me until now.

AMAZING GRACE: Loved and Saved by Him

I think that would be the title of my journey with Daddy.

Why amazing grace..there is no good thing in me when I was far away from Daddy. I am nobody but a SINNER who claim His follower but live out a sinful life. There is no hope in me until God found me and caught me back not once but twice-to save me because He loves me sooo much.

So today..its was such great reminder for me when I sang the song "Terlalu Besar"..a reminder to stay close and hold on to God for no matter what will happened now or in the future. Because of His goodness and forgiveness to me I now choose to serve Him alone wherever He placed me. Sometimes as I look at how my friends live out their life..evil thought just came and say..

"In such a young age you can enjoy your life more instead of wasting your time with your so called God"

Does it affect me? YES! But I choose to continue look upon Him-My Daddy and Saviour.

There is no reason I want to waste my life with all the unimportant stuffs that the world try to offer me when at the other hand Daddy offers greater things for me.

I am alive now both physically and spiritually because of His grace and I don't want to take it for granted.

That is why everything I am doing now is all for Him alone. 

Life is short so live out your life wisely-don't waste your life!

Really life is short..so everything you do now will effect your eternity..it includes

Whom do you FOLLOW

*When I choose to follow Christ and accept Him as my Personal God and Saviour-my whole life changed..how about you?

What do you do

*What are the things and where do you invest your time, energy, money or even your life? Does it helps you to grow closer with God? 

Who do you mix with

*Having strong community in Christ really a good medium to help  you to stay closer with God to remind when we forget to watch out when we careless and to support when we fall down. Do you have one?

Everything I am now nothing I can boast because I know its all because of His grace..

Daddy..

Thank You...Big Thank You

For saving my life and bringing me until this stage..

For changing my life from nothing to something great..

For teaching me new things about life and people..

For being patient with me..

For always be with me..to love and to care for me.

Help me and guide me to live out the rest of my life-all out for You alone!

Narnia

Follow @JesusChrist

Hola!
Happy November..one month for Christmas and holiday yeah!!! I mean my one week study week during Christmas..but I don't call it study week hahah because that will be my big time with my big family..can't wait hihihi

O ya...PSALM 23..one of my favorite Psalm..dear to my heart haha.
Today during our komsel Daddy reminds me something about
 Psalm 23:4,
"Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid for You are close beside me"

What is Daddy trying to tell me through this verse?
Something to do with darkness or darkest place??
I don't like dark place especially when I am alone..I feel like I can't get my body balance and its quite difficult for me to walk in dark place..and darkest place..wa can't imagine.

But...Daddy tell me this,
"Are you dare to walk with Me even in darkest place? Holding My hand-tightly and don't let it go until we reach the end?"

I laughed hahahhaa..that is typical Narnia with hahahaha
"Well Daddy..I think its quite difficult for me(honest answer bha)..since I don't know what road will we pass by and what is the condition of the road---dirty,dry, maybe dangerous..but then if You truly be with me throughout the journey-holding my hand- I will go"

Beloved,
Seriously telling this to Daddy never easy for me especially when it comes to letting Him leading my road-which road should I take-and follow His way with obedience. This is what Daddy is trying to teach me these days..to let Him fully lead my way to His calling. If you ask me right now where is He trying to lead me..I don't know yet. I only know that the end of this journey is the crown Daddy will give it to me..the eternal crown of salvation from Him for His precious daughter.
Moving ahead without knowing exactly how it goes is very hard..but like what Daddy told me earlier..HOLD ON TO HIM AND DON'T LET IT GO.

How about you? Are you still holding on something until you can't let it go?Holding none but on Jesus alone. Listen to His voice-simple act of faith today will change your future-future with full of hope in Him. Trust His ways!

I end with this song..one of my favorite song too. Be blessed!

KAULAH HARAPAN

Bukan dengan kekuatanku
Ku dapat jalani hidupku
Tanpa Tuhan yang disampingku
Ku tak mampu sendiri
Engkaulah kuatku
Yang menopangku

Ku pandang wajah Mu dan berseru
Pertolongan ku datang dari Mu
Peganglah tanganku jangan lepaskan
Kaulah harapan dalam hidupku

Convocation-Friendship-Blessing

Yeah today is the last day of convocation day in my uni.
Big congrats to Chef, Joji, Rachel,Raymond,Alfera,Veron,Adelyn,Ben,Rofia,David,Vivian and the teachers:Moureen,Jess,Dexter,Adi and Lisa huhu.
wow I think 3 years passed like so fast bah..its like we just registered yesterday and now seeing my friends graduating..happy but at the same time so sad..they are leaving sob sob.

Well..I guess compared to other convocation in previous years, this year is the most special one (before mine next year la hahaha). Why? because my friends who entered the same intake as me graduating first than me.

I remembered during my first day in uni, that was the first time I met my roomate-Chef-where now she is not only a friend but good sister for me. Aku sayau ka nuan Chef hahaha! We shared many stuffs (except boyfriend lol)..and of course I am really glad to have my family in PERKEB. Here in PERKEB i get to know my sampat friend where we laugh-cry-bersampat-emo together haha. and every year we have our MUST TO DO during convocation-melambung PERKEBians yang graduate haha.When we "lambung-ing" the PERKEBians..it was soooo funny and so much fun seeing them screaming with funny expression-I think my favorite among all is Jess hahaha.

Being a student in uni not only mean you come to get your degree but as for me its a time where I really enjoyed my uni life with different types of friend-studying and serving God together. Really thank God for each one of them who He placed in my life during my uni (macam da grad pula haha).

So for me this convocation remind me of the friendship we had in PERKEB especially and the blessing God has given us especially those who just graduated. I am proud of you guys!

So Daddy..
Thank You for such wonderful convocation we had even though its raining session but we enjoyed it haha
Thanks for each of my PERKEB family and You faithfully be with them during their uni life and surely You will always with them
Thank You for my senior too..hahaha who always passed their notes to me
not forgotten for David from Chosen Treasure who drive all the way to Bangi to give the convocation gifts for PERKEBians haha
finally thank God for the PERKEB banner as well..Thanks to Bryan who manage to finish it on time hihi
ITS REALLY A THANK YOU POST hahah

Fellowship With DADDY

"The LORD desires our fellowship with Him more than our works and gifts for Him"

Yeah very true..thank You Daddy for reminding me about having fellowship with You. Seriously last week was so hard for me and many times I just can't stand

Last week was just so terrible I guess..

Until I reached the point where

I hate my self for being super busy and again became the headless chicken

I hate it when I don't even have my own time with Daddy

I hate it when I don't even have time for family, friends and course mates

and I told Daddy I can't handle them all anymore

Daddy never leave me alone really

and Daddy brought me to our Family Camp where it was just at the right time and right moment for me to get off from my busy world. Weekend in Broga really helps me to gain back my strength in God,helping me to just relaxing my self and at the same time refreshing my mind.

Family Camp PERKEB-Outbac Broga

 Really..I like especially during our morning devotion..sitting besides the pond..so beautiful! and that moment I had long conversation with Daddy especially about our relationship. The forgotten relationship ka? Ya exactly! I lost my mind and everything because I simply lost my relationship with Daddy!

My favorite place during devotion!

So during the Family Camp..many things crossed my mind-gentle reminder from DADDY about:

-Walking and journeying 24/7 with Daddy 

-Be wise in my time management

-Be responsible in my study (where I guess many times I failed) and also in serving Him

-Get to know someone as mentor and at the same time to mentor other people

-Be faithful in my preparation process to reach my calling-don't lost passion during the journey

and most importantly To enjoy God-Continually seek Him!

Not forgotten when Pr.Les shared about building Godly character..yeah this is what I learn these few days..

One step at a time

Be patient

Be faithful

Be a teachable person

Wait-Listen-Obey!

Whom do you seek?

Galatians 1:10

Am I now trying to win the approval of men or of God?

Or am I trying to please me?

If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Beloved,

Whom do you seek for approval?

Are you living your life for the approval and praise of people or of God?

God designed us to desire Him alone.

When we choose to live for Him, we will never be thirsty for attention because we will be hydrated in His love.

So now let me ask you again:

Whom do you seek today?

Not What I Want-But What Do You Want?

Mark 14:38 (MSG)

"Papa, Father-You can-can't You? Get Me out of this. Take this cup away from Me. But please, not what I want-what do You want?"

This is what Jesus said when He was in Gethsemane before His betrayal. I try to imagine Jesus' situation during that moment-it must very very hard until Jesus Himself asked our Abba Father if possible to take away that heaviness from Him. Yet..one thing that really amazed me was when at the end of it Jesus said this:

"But please, Not what I want-what do You want?

For me personally..especially when it comes to struggles,decision and even trial...it will never be easy to say the same thing like what Jesus did in Gethsemane. How many of us really have that courage to tell our Abba Father:
"Daddy..not what I want but what do You want- in my life and for my future?"
Me still in process of not only telling this to Daddy but also learn to trust and obey Him..its really hard.
I think this year is the hardest year for me compared to other years..maybe because this year I finally entrusted Daddy my future. and because of that many times I cried out before Him-asking His direction and guidance for the next step and the hardest part was when I can't see nothing nor hear anything from Him. During this period I always get tempted to just come back to my own planning but just at the right time Daddy will again remind me to continue trusting Him.

Similar but not the same?
I remembered last Friday after our PERKEB prayer meeting and PC while me and Chef on the way back to my hostel..suddenly she gave me one pencil case-exactly like mine but its wasn't mine! It was someone else that left at the lecture hall where we had our prayer meeting earlier. I just can't stop laughing at her even after she returned the pencil case.

From this very simple situation..Daddy suddenly remind me about similar but not the same-His planning vs my planning. It might be similar but not the same and Daddy wants exactly the same-not just similar.
Somehow I always think that my decision and action is what Daddy really wants me to do but when I sit and think again..I was wrong at some point where I let my own understanding and logic to take place my head and my heart. and without realizing that I drifted away from His plan.

I printed this: NOT WHAT I WANT BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT and put in my purse with some pictures (well visual person love to do this). Why? One of my way to remind myself everyday that everything I do in my life is not about me but its all about Him alone even though I don't understand.
Dare to move in His fully guidance in your life today? As what Sis Kim Cheng said during NC 2010,

"Our God is full with surprises"

Yes He is..as long as we continue to walk in His ways and hold fast to Him-you will never regret that yo have taken the way-to follow Him!

Important vs Unimportant

Hola October!
I have quite long To Do List this week with most assignments due date next week hahah and  it was such a big relief when  finally I am done with my First chapter today..ready to meet my supervisor hihi.
Procrastination? Intentional Delay?
Do I procrastinate? Hahah I have to admit yes I am but now especially this semester trying and trying hard to not to do it.

Why do people procrastinate actually?
It is because of bad time management or failure to set between what's important and what's unimportant as well as setting our priority.
Well..for me maybe because I take the second reason which is my own  failure to set between what's important and what's unimportant. Sometimes I will give more attention to what unimportant stuff rather to my important to do list and end up with last minute work.

Seriously this semester is quite relax for my class but not my responsibilities. Many things came up and sometimes I lost my mind..which one to do first argggh. There is moment when I feel stress and depressed . But yeah thanks to Chef and Isabela for the encouragement and of course-ALWAYS- DADDY who never fails to strengthens me :)
Sometimes I wish I am still in holiday and just relax my mind hahaha (dreaming)
But then Daddy always remind me of where am I now and things that I should do.
There is no more time for "rest" but really full swing with the spirit of excellence kan.
BETUL BETUL BETUL

And as I sit and think back..the same things happen with our spiritual growth. Sometimes we still think that we still can play around without taking serious step knowing God-studying His Word and do what He ask to. That's why some people think its okay to not going church or finding God but rather go to other place or do something else especially on Sunday!
and now it reminds me of my bad dark days during my diploma hahha..I guess i was like those people who think it is unimportant to find God now.

Beloved, let us not be conformed to this world (Romans 12:2)- Now is the time-a time of really seeking His Kingdom. His time is around the corner although we might don't know the exact time of His second coming but as His Children let us always-be watchful all the time. So let us be wise with things we are doing these days...including where we invest our time and energy. Invest your time to things that worth for.

"Daddy,
Help us to discern the difference between what's importand and what's unimportant and set our priorities in a way that is pleasing You. Obrigada Aman!"

Running Away

Be still..Jesus is our Captain :)

L.O.V.E

1 Corinthians 13:7 (AMP)

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything without weakening.

Janji Ditepati

I remember when I was in primary school every time this date-31st August being mentioned one thing that cross my mind was-MERDEKA!

Later after that when I was in my secondary school I finally found out that Malaysia was born on 16th September 1963

Since that I knew clearly that 31st August every year is Malaya's birthday.

Thank God that I am not sure since what year but for sure now Hari Malaysia on every 16th September is Malaysia public holiday-thats the real birthday of Malaysia kan :)

Janji Ditepati

I heard many people disagree with the Merdeka's theme this year-politics?

Well I am not really into politics but for me personally I like this theme anyway.

Why Janji Ditepati?

As we going to celebrate Malaysia 50th birthday or Jubilee year I think Janji Ditepati is what God wants to do in this country.

Jubilee is the year where God will fulfill His promises upon this country-beloved Malaysia.

Hope Of Jubilee!

As I read 2 Chronicles 7, verse 16 caught my attention. Wow..Malaysia you are dear in God's heart.

Every time when we gather to intercede for Malaysia I always remember and believing that God will do something great in this country..Halleluyah!

One pastor ever mentioned, "Kritikan tidak akan mengubah Malaysia, hanya Tuhan yang boleh mengubah-jadi berdoalah!"

How many of us, who very good in criticizing and complaining about our government yet never spend even 5 minutes to pray for Malaysia?

God placed us in this country with reasons-one of them is to stand for this country before Him.

Satu Malaysia Satu Bahtera

When I first heard this song, I told my friend, "Cantiklah lagu ni"

Yeah..the lyric is just so meaningful especially when it comes to the word of BAHTERA-ARK

Remember the story of Noah in the Bible? God saved Noah and his family from the punishment of the big flood (Genesis 6-7).

My prayer is that the same thing will happen for this country. That none of us will left out from entering the ark of salvation from our Lord Jesus Christ.

So yeah-we can make different for Malaysia..wake up and start praying for your country!

MALAYSIA FOR CHRIST!

Talk is cheap-Walk the talk

Mark 14
v.13 But he said emphatically, " If I must die with you, I will not deny you." And they all said the same.
v.50 And they all left Him and fled.

Talk is cheap. Even Jesus's disciples proved it.
This is the story before Jesus was arrested. A few hours EARLIER all the disciples had said they would rather die than denying the Lord. A few hours LATER, however, they all scattered!

As I was reading this chapter I told myself- really talk is so cheap!
Us-nowadays- very easy to say we are devoted to Christ and will never denying Him-like what the disciples said.
Yet when trials come- are we still with what we said earlier?
When we meet someone that we think he/she is our soul mate even though he/she is not a believer- easily we sold our faith and denying God.
When we get the superb job offer that requires us to deny Jesus- easily we sell our faith. (I wonder how much our faith is). My question- HOW STRONG IS YOUR FAITH?

The Bible said, faith without action is dead (James 2:17). The same thing with our talk. WALK THE TALK bah!

If we claim that we love Jesus but we never live the life that honor God- it proves that we don't love Him> Talk is cheap.Walk the talk.

If we claim that we are Christ true follower yet we never have the effort to spend quality time with God-praying and meditating His Word day and night- again we are just not the true follower> Talk is cheap. Walk the talk.

If we claim we are serving Him with all our heart but never really preparing ourselves before serving-too busy in ministry until we neglected time with God-we are not serving Him indeed just showing off that we able to do so called christian good work. > Talk is cheap. Walk the talk.

If we claim that we are different from this world yet the way we live out our life- just like how the nonbelievers did-we were the same as them! > Talk is cheap. Walk the talk.

If we claim that we are living holy good lifestyle as what God command us to live holy because He is holy- yet the way we run our relationship, our speech and action just the same as the people who don't know God- it proves that we aren't. > Talk is cheap. Walk the talk.

TALK IS CHEAP. WALK THE TALK.
Strong reminder from Daddy for me and each of us.
Last Sunday Pastor Hendrik shared about "Kristian Sejati" "The True Christian".
When we claim we are the true Christian but never have the deep relationship with God- we are not..ouch! sakit kan.
Seorang murid Kristus dikenal dari buahnya.
The true disciple of Christ known by its fruit. 

so yeah.Beloved..I am not perfect none of us. That is why we need God, we need Jesus and the guidance of the Holy Spirit every moment to live in this dark world.Jesus is the Way the Truth and the Life (John 14:6). Without Him we are nothing.He is waiting for each of us to come back to Him. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9)


Word of the Day: TALK IS CHEAP. WALK THE TALK.

Wait Bah

Motivates4Life: When there’s Nothing you can Do… Wait:

A Walk To Remember

Botardi!!

Hahaha finally I get the chance to write again yeah.

Oppsss..I guess I didn't post any birthday wishes this year..busy travelling here and there.

But I think this year birthday was the coolest birthday celebration I ever had hahah. My birthday is the same date of our church camp..and get Pastor David and Sis Tunung to pray for me. Since Papa and Mama is not with me..they are more than enough for me. Obrigada!

And as I told my friends what is my ideal birthday present, Molly bought one for me hahaha

now my Hiro has a little brother named Fahi hahahha

Just right after our church camp I had STOMP Timor Leste. One week training in Crossroad was very good preparation especially for me because during that time I was so worry about my funds. Ishh..this girl kan. Daddy keep on reminding even during the church camp about trusting Him..and yeah Daddy really showed me His big miracle! He provides more than enough 2 days before we left Malaysia. Aman O Diak- Father You are Good!

STOMP TL

Password given:

"Grow A Heart For Timor Leste"

Wow..sangat wow bah hahah

a lot of memories and that is why I named my journey as "A Walk To Remember"..same title with one of my favorite movie hahah..but yeah with different story. This is STOMP TL version ya.

Why 'A Walk To Remember" ?

Here it goes..

My first experience staying over night at Changi Airport. Thanks Daddy for the sleeping bag we had haha.

Of course my first time in Timor Leste. A year ago I told my self that one day I will go to this country..and Daddy make it happen this year. Birthday present from Daddy yeah!!

Timor Leste...Its hot, dry and dusty. (When people asked me about Timor Leste weather-this is the best description I have hahah)

Dili the capital city of Timor Leste is a small city with abandon building-burnt building during the war..plus the graffiti on the wall..all around the place. Somehow I guess that was what really in the Timorese heart.

The people?

Good hospitality as always hahha

We stayed in Cocoon. Its a library and at the same time the local NGO in Dili.

 Met the three wonderful teacher from Singapore- Siew Lee, Lishan and Dawn-They were full with faith and live simple life there yet giving big impact especially in rising up new Timorese young leaders.

Met Frans again..the first time I met him was during EARC with Lishan. and now get to know great young people-Naza, Acacio, Atoy, Luis and Lina.

 Not only that the kids in Cocoon just amazing..Nai,Azianah, Ahsiah, Monica, Ruben and many more..they were super cute and many of them barefoot! The cool part was during our last day with them, the kids lay hands on us and pray! Hancur hatiku:(

We helped out with some youth training in Vision Training Centre (VTC)..with around 85 of youth there. With their big size sempat me worry during our first session haha. But then thanks Daddy and also Maun Abel and Peter for your help:)

The youth in VTC like singing and one of the song we learn is "Joven" means youth. Met Leli, Anje, Eddy, Abe, Sika, Oppie and even The Rock hahaha. They were full with talents and dream. I hope that they will continue with their big dream..Their stories especially during the 1999 war were undescribeable. Can you imagine some of them hide in the mountain for 4 months without proper house so they have to sleep on the rock. So much scars in their heart. Daddy heal them with Your surpasses love.

Not forgotten the first polite Pak Guard we met. It was our fault to take picture in one of the campus without asking permission. The Pak Guard came and shook our hand then scold us! Hahahahah after that before he left again he shook our hand. Funny betul..

The view in Dili was fantastic!!!!

ok..I am not a beach person but Dili change everything..the view from sunrise to the sunset sooo cantik! and during our BBQ with new Malaysian friend- Ps.Naomi, Pricilla and the brother- we mandi laut at night with Maun Abel and Sakai Bert (Jess always call him with that name hahaha)..kesian Jess tak dapat join. Our Pendekar Peter and Mama Beatrice pun tak join ni.It was super cold and suddenly something bite my toe..and  that actually stop me to continue mandi laut :(((

Costa Rei

The place where Jesus' statue built

and here we had our reflection after 10 days in Dili

and here where Daddy showed me His dream and real heart to be my dream

and here where I once again surrender everything into Daddy's hand about my future..

I am ready..just wait for His perfect time and next command :)

So yeah that's how my STOMP TL

Its not the end but its the beginning of our journey to continue growing heart for Timor Leste.

Obrigada barak...big thank you

for your support and prayer ya.

Maromak Foo Bensa-God bless!

Adventures

Yeah I am back hahha

After 5 days in Indonesia now I am back for 2 weeks in my sweet home country.

Lots memories and stories to tell hahha

First among all-big thanks to Daddy for the protection during our 5 days trip in Surabaya and Malang. Daddy really the One who provides and helps during the panic situation at the beginning of our journey while in LCCT..almost miss the flight because of some unexpected problem. First miracle during of our trip hahah.

We landed safely at Juanda International Airport Surabaya and yeah we finally met our friends from UNESA. My first impression of UNESA campus was-wow its really feel like home. So much different with UKM. It doesn't really look like a campus but for me its like more on a campus village style-everything-the road, the local people who stay inside the campus and they plant vegetables- I love it haha. and just no monkeys in there unlike my campus haha. Whe we arrived at the hostel- I have to tell you that their hospitality was superb just like 5 stars hotel. From the food and everthing especially I had the chance to try cappuccino with granule chocolate and its made in Indonesia. The taste was like heaven!

During our first day in UNESA, they brought us to jalan-jalan around Surabaya city and visited The Heroes Monument in Surabaya. Sweating a lot since Surabaya weather is just like Kuala Lumpur hahah. Tiring day after the whole day journey and came back to hostel. but since dring that time was EURO season..me and another 3 friends from Malysia woke up at 1.45am to watch the final match between Italy and Spain. I wore my Italia jersey but then so sad when Italy lost 0-4 with Spain. my firt time watching football with my coursemate actually hahha. Day 2 in UNESA, we visited the faculty of education and met the rest of the special eductaion program students. We had our informal discussion about the special education program both in UKM nad also UNESA. A lot of input we get during the discussion especially the practice they already had in UNESA but we do not have yet in UKM. We do not spent much time in UNESA since we have to go to UM. But even though it was limited time together with the UNESA students but the knowledge we get was very helpful.

On the way to UM, we stop by Lapindo Mud in Surabaya. Quite scary but it was sad while listening to the stories of the local peole who stay there long time ago. I bought CD of the Lapindo Mud tragedy but haven't watch it haha.

After long journey we finally reach Malang city. Compare to Surabaya, the weather in Malang was cooler. We stay in hotel-not bad bah the place. We spent 4 days in Malang and as usual again their hospitality alaso not bad. Since I am a big eater.. I love when they always give us food but not really with the bun hahha. I love trying new food and of course some I like some not hahha. Actually its a school holiday season so we don't have chance to go school and see how their special education in classroom. But thank God we had the chance to visit one of the vocational school for special needs students and of course again the practice of specal education in that school super good. The special needs students so talented and so much creativity compared to my self actually. I was thinking when are we in Malaysia gonna have like them-that's why we visited that place-to learn something new and information for our special education program in Malaysia.




We suppose to teach sumazau dance to the special needs students in that school but since we do not have much time the school management canceled it. Big relieve for me by the way since I just don't know how to teach sumazau dance in front of the VIPs including my lecturers also there for the sumazau dance session. After that the school management brought us around that school and visited different classroom whereby some students stayed during holiday just for our visit.






Day 3 in Malang, we went to Mount Bromo which I consider it very far from our hotel. Just recently I am excited about hiking and since our planning to climb Mount Kinabalu cancelled at least I have the chance to climb Mount Bromo haha. Its very very cool and to get to the first peak we have to use Jeep. Since its still dark plus very cold we slept during the journey hahah. When we arrived I was shock because lots motorcycles! They offered to send us to the peak but we don't take it since the road was quite dangerous. and that was my first experience hiking with traffic jam on the way to the peak haha. Very beautiful place and stunning view from the peak. After that we get back to the jeep and went to the second mount which the real Mount Bromo haha. Very sandy and lots horses. Again offer us use horses to up the mount. I don't like horse and the smell was describable haha. Difficult and very challenging but thank God we manage to reach the peak of the mountain. Mount Bromo is actually an active volcano..Thanks again for the protection Daddy. Because of the horse we smell like horse's shit as well hahhahaha.


After 5 days there, we finally going back to Malaysia and of curse our program report waiting for us hahahah. But before that another miracle happened in airport. When we want to get in the plane my immigration card was not with me. I thought the immigration officer took it but when I checked my other course mates still have it. I was so worry but then Daddy helps me..they let me get in the plane..halleluyah!
Wow..such wonderful journey and all glory to God who never fails be with us during the journey:)

YES I CAN!

Hola again:)))

This is what Daddy gave me these days:)

Whatever I have,

Wherever I am,

I can make it,

Through anything in Christ.

Philippians 4:13 (MSG)

Step by step-He leads and Provides!

Its been a busiest and hard week of my final exam..4 papers in one week but Daddy is everything.He helps me and give me peace during the exam..thanks Daddy.

 O ya..in one week time I will be flying to Surabaya and its not like any trip that I had before since it contains 40% of our final exam marks. so basically each of us have to do report for this trip and before that of course fundraise by ourselves-including the flight we have to fundraise total RM1,000 and you see God provides. So basically what we gonna do there is visiting the two universities- Universitas Surabaya and Universitas Malang. and we will be having chance to visit the special education school there. can't wait..I heard Indonesia special education school was good. something new to bring back here in Malaysia for sure. Its a one week trip and of course all the time I am the only one believer among my coursemates but strongly believe Daddy is always be with me. My mission field-to be salt and light :)

2 weeks after that I will be joining STOMP TL training in PJ. STOMP TL is Students Together on Mission Partnership Timor Leste -organized by the Fellowship of Evangelical Students Malaysia (FES). We will be on the field from 21st until 31st July. Let me share how actually God brought me to join STOMP TL. Last year I attended the East Asia Regional Conference in Singapore and everyday there is a session called country sharing. I remember I represent Malaysia and shared about the christian students movement and the challenges we face in this country. and there one session that really caught my heart- Timor Leste! During the country sharing I can't even describe how my heart look like. I keep on thinking and telling my self.."one day I will go to this country for mission trip"

So since that I put Timor Leste in my mission country list:) I shared with my taiko-she is truly wonderful person to me-thanks sis for listening hahha. Clearly I remembered she said " Our Father is never in a hurry. One step at a time." If Daddy really call me for mission He surely leads me step by step..its just like what is in the book I am currently reading No Distance Too Far (Will update my book review after I done with the reading ya:). Come back to my story, after that my new semester started and studying as usual.And in my CF we were given the FES flyers about the activities coming up and I saw STOMP-Timor Leste. Yet I didn't do nothing because I plan to do my short semester during the semester break. Until last March sis asked me about joining STOMP TL. She asks me to pray about it. I calculate my unit for my final year and I realize it should be ok without me doing my short semester-YES I said Yes for STOMP TL. That was the first time I say YES without worrying the fund that I have to raise which total is RM 4,500. wow its bigger than the loan I get every semester haha.

But as I was reading the The World Race site I found this, very interesting and inspiring me "If God calls you to this journey then He will also provide for the necessary funds"..wow..Rm 4,500 is not small amount to me but not for Daddy kan. This is the time I should trusting Him more:) still need RM3,350 but like what we tell our trip leader-the money is on the way from Daddy :). So ya do remember me in prayer and also thanks to each one of you who support me in prayers as well as in financial-GREAT IS YOUR REWARD IN HEAVEN :)

So will keep you update ya..till we meet.God bless you:)))