Thank You Daddy

These few days a lot of thing happened..bad and good.
First..
My brother asked me to conduct our family prayer meeting every weekend.I told you i almost give up to pray for my family members when i saw no improvement and i can say the situation just so bad.but God never let me give up.He answered my prayer.I can't tell you hows my feeling when i received the sms from my brother.I was so so excited and I thank God for opening door for me. i am busy with assignments,i don't know but this semester is the busiest semester for me.but i ask God to help me.if i wait for my free time i guess i will never have,so i have to make time.make time for the work God has entrusted me to do..my family.

Second
Last semester i applied scholarship from KUOK Foundation.During my interview i have one document not with me but God opened the door and i get it. i received the letter from them last month.i sent over all the documents needed last month as well. until now i haven't get any call from the Foundation.Last Tuesday i told God,"Lord please do something with my scholarship.i need it.". After that i forgot about it. during my class suddenly i receive a call from the Foundation! the lady told me that i haven't sent back the acceptance letter for my scholarship.I did..but yeah so i sent another copy on that day itself.so now..i just need to wait again for the call from the Foundation. My prayer is i will get it by this month,amen:)

Third
During my micro teaching yesterday my lecturer said i didn't pass up my lesson plan. I did...what happen actually.it seems that everything i sent they didn't receive it?i was very down yesterday..super down.while waiting for the next class i read the online Bible and God showed me this verse:
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice!(Philippians 4:4)

I told God.."Lord its very hard to rejoice in this situation.everything went wrong." but suddenly God made me smile after my evening class. before Raya break i sent e-mail to all my lectures to wish them Selamat Hari Raya. and my lecturer thanked me yesterday. simple Thank You changed my day..because i believe that one day My God will be their God..AMEN!

Fourth
This is the greatest joy yesterday. I ate with my two friends. we shared about what God has done in our life.I ever told you that i am no more OLD NERNNY because God has forgiven me for my sins and now i am the NEW NERNNY. but actually i have one thing i never told anyone except God. but yesterday i told my friend..i can you i fell so so free..God never sees you for what you have done in your past.He has forgiven you!you are new creation in Christ now.that happened to me yesterday! i thanked God for sending my friend for me to share about what happened to me. the great thing was,not only me but she also experience God's freedom after that!Halleluyah!!!i always love this:
"KETERBUKAAN ADALAH AWAL DARI PEMULIHAN"

when i looked back what happen last three days,God worked in my life miraculously..really.
"DADDY,THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.I LOVE YOU"

My Testimony

One very good friend of mine sent me her testimony that she wrote.Believe me her testimony conclude 46 pages..no joke! and i believe too that if we write down everything what God has done is our life..its more than 46 pages of testimony..its countless. I am so happy that she write them down and I am so blessed with each story that she shared.I told her that I want to do the same.

So that when i write down my testimony its not only can be a blessing to others who read it but it also reminds me of God's presence throughout my life, that I can count on Him.One thing I always keep in my mind is,in every moment in my life He was there, He is there, He will be there!I have always thought of my testimony as something I can use to inspire and encourage others, but had never thought actually that I could use it to encourage and inspire myself. God is faithful and He has proved it over and over again. I can look back over my life and trace His hand, feel His presence and trust His purpose.

Daddy, thank You for always working in my life. When I get discouraged, let me see that You worked in my life in the past and You are at work now. Help me to recall my testimony so that I can feel Your presence. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

uNdERStanDING me and yourself?

"I understand..its okey.Don't worry"
This is very familiar and I use it most of the time.I am not really sure either I will say it out to take care of others feeling or because I really meant it.When we want to pleasure someone we sometime ought will say this,just like me.I am not sure about you but yes I did it.

It is hard to understand someone when that person cannot meet our needs..our wishes and our dream? Frankly speaking,it does. Sometimes it leave bitterness in my heart when I am always the one who say" Its okey" even though its not okey. Hypocrite?maybe hahha.

Bitterness is not good!
Hypocrite is not good either!
SO WHAT IS GOOD THEN?

GOD
Forgiveness
Honesty
Loving

Do I have all these?do I need all these to maintain my relationship with others? YES I NEED THAT 100%. why do I say that?because that was what happened to me this few days. when others cannot meet my needs..I turn to God for help and courage..it works!
As I read this verse,It really speaks to me..ngam bah hihi

My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalms 73:26)

So how about you?what makes you able to understand others when the situation seems impossible for you to understand?Jesus is the right answer..Turn to Him and He will make your way.amen

When HE says;"I LOVE YOU"

I PROMISE
When I say I love Jesus..nothing can set us apart
When I say love you..I really meant it
When I say I love my family..that is very true
When I say I love every single of my friends..I will keep it forever

SUDDENLY

When these words appear..
BITTERNESS
ANGRY
DISAPPOINTMENT
GIVE UP
FRUSTRATION
REJECTED
FORGOTTEN
Am I still able to keep my promise?
Am I still able to look up to Jesus for help and hope?
Am I still able to love the people who hates me?
Am I still able to say I love you to the the people who far from me?

ONLY ONE ANSWER
YES I DO!
BECAUSE JESUS ENABLES ME SO!
HOW PROUD AM I TO HAVE A GREAT GOD LIKE HIM
HE IS MY BESTFRIEND,MY LOVER AND MY DADDY!

BUT..there is BUT here.Is it hard to always believing and be positive? I am not a superwoman and what so ever you call it. I am a human being..I did mistakes..I have feeling and I do have my so called bad day. It was a hypocrite of me telling people:
"Don't worry dear,you gonna be okey.God is with you!"
"You can do it'
"It's a process to be matured"
bla bla bla........
and I end up..crying alone and try to raise up my faith in Him..to believe Him that its gonna be okey if I trust Him.

ITS HARD REALLY HARD..i faced it before,every moment when I felt discourage.. maybe even now.Its even harder when the BAD OLD LIFE OF ME confronted me..it tempted me to say "Okeey..I am giving up..I can't do it anymore..I am mess.."

AGAIN BUT..
you know what makes me really awake of feel sympathy of myself? is the people around me.the people that I love around me..am I not important to me?is their problem important than myself...?its sound crazy but that is what i feel..when God showed me what the people around me faced,their mess in life,family problem,financial problem..so much problem...I started telling myself:
'God wants to use you Nernny for these people,the people around you.HE LOVES YOU"
and the simple "I LOVE YOU" from God actually makes me ARISE..

Every morning when I got up,God reminds me on HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME so that I can love others just like HE LOVES ME....that is when the "ME' come in again hahahha..
JESUS LOVES YOU
JESUS LOVES EACH ONE OF YOU
and...yeah JESUS LOVES ME TOO!!!!

LISTENING TO GOD'S VOICE

WHY AM I REALLY WANT TO HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD?
1.So that I can tell Him my problems and my plan and what's happening in my life
2.I want to know what His BEAUTIFUL PLAN for me
3.So that I will know what will happen in my future
and..lots more

BUT

God rebuked me a few days ago about how selfish am I. I want to hear God's voice because I want to know what good things He has for me..in other words I have my own agenda why I really want to listen to His voice. Every morning when I open my Bible I ask God, "Lord,what You have for my situation today?" EVERYTHING WAS ABOUT ME-MYSELF-MY OWN BENEFIT! VERY VERY SELFISH..yeah!I don't do that because I want to know Him more..that is my answer..honest.

BUT AGAIN
For God loves me and rebukes me,I know I have to change. No more ME-MYSELF-MY OWN AGENDA,but I want to listen to Him because I want to know Him more.I want to know His agenda and His desire.Help me to understand You more,to obey You and to be sensitive with You my Lord!amen